Madly in lurve with desire

2009-12-08T00:43:00.002+08:00

Ayang mux be sliping rite now..i kinda miss u deeply...im real sorie dat i made u worried yesterday till u even went to search fer me all over yishun just to ensure dat im safe...u r soo nice to me dear..suddenly u transformed into another person who is sum1 dat fits my criteria of a dream guy...i appreciate all the things dat u hv done fer me..u hv been texting me n calling me daily,u hv been showing me dat u care fer me n showering me wit loads of love..thankiu dear fer diz past 43mths u have been patient wit my behaviour...i hope our r/s can go far despite all the challenges dat we wud be facing in the future...=)

2009-12-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

I've seen ur true colours n dats enuff fer me to make a wise decision..=)

2009-12-01T17:11:00.002+08:00

Ystd nite wit wan zhen alone was super shitty...especially mon nite wit all the changes n IV plug wanted fer my pt...i swear it was so unbearable..i finished writing report at 4.30am..i meant on mon till wed y don't they actuallie give 3 SN so dat the floater can give IV fer each of our side...n we didn't even had time to topup the injection trolley n the counter was so messy..in the end we get a scolding from Sister Ho..omg 1st tyme i see her super pissed..but nehmind at least im so glad dat she's back in action to our ward..wee!!have yet to ask her to change my roster..yikes!!

Anw after reading all my previous post wit ayang..i realised how deeply in love i was with him back then ard 3 yrs ago...i just wished dat the feeling will just come back n make my heartbeat skip a beat weneva i c u..but no matter a part of my heart still says dat i love u..its oni dat its not strong enuff dear...nehmind togather we will make it relive again...mitting ayang tmr to book BTT...ooh i can't wait...=)

ps:i hope todae will be a betta nite fer me...pray hard..bismillah.

2009-11-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

Night with u ystd did struck me hard...i mean im not trying to play wit ur feelings Mr S...but sumhow i think im falling fer u slowly..its because of ur maturity but on the otha hand i noe things can neva werk out btw us...haish..i dun wan to play wit both of ur feelings but i just dunoe how to confess to the both of u...i like both of ur companion cux u both r alwaez ther wen i need u...i noe im selfish enuf to do this but il just let time decides...if 1 dae i had to lose the both of u..then im prepared for it..

Wadeva u told me at punggol ystd did hurt my heart a bit,dats wer i noe dat i fall fer u but ther r just circumstances dat we can't be tgt...i hope 1 dae u will understand wad i meant...i wan u to have a great future n spent ur tyme wit sum1 dat will surely b ur wife..i don't want u to waste ur age aniemore..we bothe noe dat we can't put alot of hopes in dix r/s dat we were having..n i doubt that u even trust evry single words dat i told u..n it's okae fer me cux i've lied to u once before..i just dunoe wad to feel...hurt,confused or useless???

Boify is having suspicion over me due to wadeva ppl have been telling him...to the xtent dat he was waiting fer me at the coffeeshop to see whether i've reached home alone or wit sum1 else..i was super shocked wen he said dat he was waiting at the coffee shop..thank goodness he didn't saw e wit Mr S...im saved.this game is getting more dangerous n i can c dat u realie love me dear..i realie felt bad fer doing this to u ayang..forgive me..i just dunoe wad was i tinking..ultimately 1 dae i still need to make a wise decision to choose between the both of u..let tings b the wae it is NOW...

2009-11-19T01:28:00.003+08:00

I finallie pluck my courage to tell u dat i still love u after neglecting u for 1 whole week...its been rather hard for me due to certain issue dat was playing in my mind back then...i noe dat sumtymes i do take things too hard till it affected our r/s..n im real sorie dat i was getting attention from another person but now i realised dat wadeva happens u were always ther fer me n won't dissappear from me eventhou i was damn cruel..ur love fer me is so strong dat it make me tink twice if i wana let go of this r/s...thanx so much munii fer knocking some sense into my head gal..i shall stay devoted to u regardless of wad dat idiot thinks...n im not acting defeat wen it comes to love..=)

2009-11-15T15:07:00.005+08:00

Im playing with fire now and its a very big mistake...i shouln't have gave u hope n lied to u dat im single..now i've made u fall in love wit me..u r such a nice person who cud get sum1 betta..i really don't wana hurt u..indeed u have been giving me the support,care,hope n concern fer this past 1 mth..i gladly appreciate all the sacrifices u done to me..but on the otha hand when u confess to me,i didn't noe how to react..i dun even noe i love u or only enjoyed ur company..i dun wan it to be in a way dat i turn to u just becux i felt lonely or heartbroken wit my boify...

Shud i just ran away in silence from u...i realie treasure everything dat we had now..i want it to be like diz all the way but i noe good things wun last long...n my r/s wit boify fer the past 3 and 1/2 years is slowly fading..all the attention dat i want n yearn from boify cud onli be achieved wen i mit him...haish.I feel damn guilty..i hope i cud get the answer who shud i choose...

ps:i can't wait fer my 1 whole wk of leave during payday week!!!=)

2009-10-18T21:05:00.002+08:00

Another person came into my life n neva fail to make me smitten by his jokes n laughter..
thanxs so much fer calling me after werk n checking whether i reached home alrd..
accompanying me by the fone is already gud enuff..
eventhough i was fcuked like hell at werk,u just knew it n will call me at the right time..
thankiu so much..im grateful to have a fren like u...
n fer all the phonecall we had late night laughing n talking about world issue..
i realie enjoyed it...
i hope it will remain like this as long as it can..=D

2009-10-13T16:34:00.002+08:00

ended 4 days DO today..will be starting werk tmr as per usual all the wae till next week..y can't holidays be a bit longer..
anw ystd boify prove to me dat he will not hurt me again..
he said dat he want to start it all over again..but its just me..im the one who's holding back..
its neva her fault or ur fault..its just me cux im a gerl who can't accept reality..n im too fragile...
this incident will probably help me make myself a stronger person..
no point thinking about the past n make me feel so hurt..
so from now im gonna think positive...if it bound to happen it will happen..
anw hapie belated bdae to boify..i hope u like the lil surprise dat i make n the prezzie dat i bought fer u..=)
waiting fer paydae to arrive cux i wana shop fer nice clothes,dress n skirts..wohoo..
i wana go swimming at jurong,play luge at sentosa n star gaze or nite cycling at the beach...so much tings to do wit my lil sis whose finishing her semester soon..wohoo!!!

2009-10-11T12:36:00.002+08:00

Im giving you one more last chance..
but thiz tyme il make my option bigger...
wadeva dat mite happen is all God's will...
i dont wan to think aniemore n in the end make myself more miserable but ill just hang on...
cuz i noe 1 dae il get my happiness but il wait fer dat dae to come..
for now im relying on my frens to make my life worth living..
thanks to all my close fren...i love u all...=)

2009-10-07T14:11:00.002+08:00

i knew this day will come sooner or later...
wad u both said did knock some sense into my head..
i need to change my soft heart to a stronger ones...
after reading that well composed msg of hers..i suddenly realised dat its time fer me move on...
n not hoping fer a miracle to happen...
she herself said dat she doesnt have feeling fer him but wadeva she wrote in the msg is opposite of wad she said..
it stabbed my heart too deep that i finalie bled non stop...
cold compress was given but still it didnt stop...pressure bandage is applied..now im in stable condition and i mite collapse anietym
not even a reassurance from him...all he ask was her no n dat u wanted to ask her abt her life...
m i a doll to him..thanx so much fer saying u love me so much ystd...
im not believing evry single word u saying..im hurt over n over again...
I hate u fer doing this to me,i hate u fer being my ever 1st love..i hate u fer evryting...
it wil be hard fer me to move on but im sure god will stand by me...
yesh i noe u miss her deeply but as a fren??? i doubt so...
2nd august incident will alwaez be playing in my mind...till im finalie move on..
how long?? God noes....im no longer a part of u..
hapie advance bdae to u on 9th Oct...il remain silent by then...

2009-08-19T13:12:00.001+08:00

Finally im back..been bz wit werk and all...now im free to blog..did had a superb tyme wit sistalup at beach road eating sup tulang..yum2 my fav..biaselar FOC wer got TAK SEDAP..haha..anw met fira at mslg mrt n mrt-ed to lavender wit our boss elfy..catchup wit a lot of stories about werk,love n life..i love dat sunday...wee!!

We ate sup tulang approx 3 bones per person trux da full then we practically walk frm beach rd to bugis just to buy my belt..n the gud thing buy 2 get 1 free..ooh i like..so cheap..then we took pic of both of us to keep as memories..bkn slalu dpt jumpe..im glad dat u find sum1 betta than that parasite..im hapie fer u..mae both of u last long...

well fer me..im a hapie person now..boify had been nice to me.3 years bkn bedek sei..no more probs fer now n i hv decide to be changed person n not to get angry fer lil things..anw boify n me also sumtyme need some space..im glad dat we began to understand each otha much betta now..gonna mit him later to watch muvi..tk sbr to cuddle up in him lg2 the cinema is cold..haha..kae dats all i can blog fer nw..wana go bath n slip again..sleepy lar sei..yeay!!

2009-07-08T18:43:00.005+08:00

Thanx juliana n huda fer the wonderful gift..i realie appreciate it loads..it realie meant alot to me..n to kiki thanx fer the wonderful n surprise dedication fer my bdae..dats so sweet of u..ur words did moved me to tears..it realie touched my heart..anw my holidaes r coming to an end..will start werking tmr..back to stress level..hee..n ayang thanx fer spending the whole 3 daes wit me..i realie enjoyed it n all the memories n i realie hope u like my token of love fer u as our anniversary gift..lurves..

a photo frame,picture will tells it all=D

2009-07-07T00:53:00.012+08:00

Finalie im OFFICIALLY 20 years old on 6 July 2009...
Thanx fer thos who rmbred my bdae n wished me...im glad dat u all did rmbred my bdae..hugs n lurves..well fer ystd i just went johore n bought fer myself a new pair of denim skirt fer oni RM59..so cheap sia..n i lurve it alot...wee!!! Then we went to eat at kenny rogers..yum2 i love their macaroni cheese wit black pepper chix..after dat it was time to go home as evry1 was tired..so we made our wae to johore custom wic was a 10-15min walk unlike the old one..but dix tyme its air conditioned.When i reached home,evry1 was acting normal until after 30mins sudd they off the hall's light n out of nowhere the cake appeared from yazid's hand..aww so sweet...i realie enjoy my bdae ystd n todae im miting MJ fer my bdae dinner with them..yeay!!! mummy missing in the pic becux she's tired so she doesnt wana take pics...

2009-06-03T22:19:00.003+08:00

A fight dat realie tested both of our patience,attitude n love....in a fit of anger,u can sae all sorts of ugly thing dat can hurt each otha damn bad...luckily im strong enuf to take it..aniwae im glad dat im a lady cux in the end ive got alot of theraphy to calm myself down...shopping spree,facials n massage..without money,i cant enjoy the pleasure of life..thanx kiki fer ur encouragement..i think everything happens fer a reason..at last all my anger is vent out n now i can focus on my werk...=0 god tested me real hard wit this challenge..n i agree im much stronger than before..alhamdulilah..kae im gonna hv some slip now cux im mornz tmr..nitey!!! May i dream of both my bestie..lurve u both..=)

2009-06-01T10:53:00.002+08:00

Just came back from nite shift..im super tired to the extreme..im hving 3 daez off shiok or wad..will go back to werk on thurs..wee!!!i wana go ZzZzzz now...will update soon...i miss my besties...i realie wana hug now...=(...shit my ward just called n asked me to do nite shift again fer the 3rd dae..im drain out...omg..no choice..more money yeay!!! have to slip now..sister ho msged me liao to go n slip..hehe..nites everyone.

2009-05-30T13:11:00.006+08:00

On 26th May..i finally graduated from NYP..n officially a full time SN..i feel so proud of myself..wee!!in the morn went to mit sheils n heyr..was 20m mins late due to me wearing n struggling walking wit my high heels..so funny..in the end ive got blisters on both 4th toes...but i feel sexy wearing high heels...line up in the auditorium according to our name..then we went into the audi n sit at our respective places..heyr was just 1 seat below me..n MJ two seats below me..yeay!!every1 was luking so gorgeous as this is their big dae..then waited fer my dad n mom tgt wif boify to come..saw them at the back..hehee..after dat it was our turn to say the nurses pledge wit our right hand raised..

Then it was time fer the big ppl to say their speech..my stomach was grumbling at dat point of time..grrr..was super hungry sei..after 20-30 mins of speech,it was tyme fer us to go up the stage 1 by 1 to take our graduation scroll..i was feeling very nervous wit thousands of ppl looking at me..wen it was my turn to go up the stage,i just walk with confident..im so loving the limelight..soon after all the graduands have taken their scroll,it was time fer us to take our refreshments..i met dad n mom wit boify outside the audi to take pictures..after dat we went to nyp lounge to take our lunch...yum2 the food was quite nice..then heyr called me n wanted to take pic wif me..his dad n bro kept taking pic of us..hehe..so funny..then i took photo wit huda..n MJ..wen i saw her,we scream as if da lame tk jumpe,pdhal baru ystd we met at werk in the same ward lg..cute tak..yeay!!

After all the pic session,my dad went to ibrahim n tok to him..tgt wit bernard..hee..then i was feeling super hott so the 3 of us decided to return the robe...while our respective parents went home..my feet hurts like hell n the next dae im supposed to be werking AM..so tired larh..actualie after dat we wanted to go out but since evri1 leg was hurting so we decided next tyme we'll go out tgt..anw ayang thanx fer coming down fer my graduation ceremony..dats so sweet of u eventhou u hv to rushed to werk after dat..n to heyr hapie holidaes gg to KL..mux mit up before u go ns kae..lurves...

Yeah2 doing nite shift todae..im so loving it..im not sure whether siti wants to put me as junior or SN..wohoo!!!luking forward tonite..=)

2009-05-20T21:53:00.002+08:00

Shud i just give and take?
I hate the fact dat i hv no past...it doesnt make u feel how im feeling rite now..haish.
i can't forget it till now..
anw today's my DO so i just slept like a log the whole dae..so shiok man..
im steel sleepy now..this job is tiring but the satisfaction is worth it..
im slowly developing n blooming myself to be SN..had been performing independantly except fer the IV meds.
onli managed to take 10-15mins in btw in order to finish all the changes..
wad matters is dat i can cope with the stress n workload so far..yeay!!!
doing my nites in 1wks tyme..hope it wud b a smooth one..
my ward is rotating sisters so we r gg to get sum1 dats quite hard to please..gonna get a combo,shit in no tyme my highlighted hair wud be white hair..hahaa..
its very sad to hear dat sister HO is leaving..she's a realie nice sister sei..il miss her even if she's just next door..=(
i so wana go fer facial dix tyme round...can't afford to leave my face unattended..
im craving fer gelare ice cream yum2...

2009-05-19T21:27:00.002+08:00

1. Besides lip,where is ur favourite spot to get kiss?
Forehead and neck..hee..lovebites or wad..yeay!!!

2. How do u feel when u wakeup this morning?
i feel so sleepy as i need to wakeup at 5am n hapie dat im onli taking 9 case but wen i reached werk i hv to take 13 case..wth..feeeling streess after dat but managed to finish in tyme.

3. Who is the last person i took photo with?
My lil sis shehanaz.

4. Would u consider urself to be spoilt?
no..ive learnt everithing the hard way..n saving my own money just to buy things dat i like...

5. Would u ever donate blood?
Wanted to at dat moment of tyme,but evryting ive make appointment wit my fren to donate blood,my menses wud automatically come...sway sia.

6. Have u had a bestfriend who is of the opposite sex?
Yesh i hv and i realie treasured n cherished every moments dat we had togather..thankiu so much fer all the wonderful memories..i love u n ur company..

7. Do u want someone dead?
So far not yet..until if the person realie cekik my draah then il sae 'mati tanak'.

8. What does the last msg say?
Kol me and i will tell u...sounds like suspense..jeng jeng jeng..hope it wont break in anotha argument..

9. What are u tinking rite now?
What to wear fer my graduation.

10. Do u wish someone is with u rite now?
Yep i wished it was my bestie..but toking over the fone wit her just now made me feel more relieved..thanx dear.

11. What tyme u went to bed last nite?
Ard 12am after bathing cux was on PM shift ystd

12. Where did u buy the t-shirt that u r wearing rite now?
hmm how do u noe weather im wearing t-shirt or blouse..haha..im wearing a purple blouse bought from bugis.

13. Is sumone in ur mind?
No..i hate him fer making me feeel this way..its so sucky.

14. Who is the last person dat texted me?
Munii my bestie

15. 10 ppl tagged to do this quiz
-Juliana
-Lyziana
-hASeena
-Sheila
-Heyr
-Norin
-Nisa
-Premmy
-Xiao Jun
-May

16. Who is 2 hving r/s with?
hmm so far she told me she's in love with her 5year old cuzen

17. Is 3 male or female?
of course female lar..she's my sister lar sei

18. If 7 and 10 get tgt,wud it be a gud thing?
NEVA...it won't even be lar..

19. What is 1 studying abt?
she's a SN in my ward..hehe..no more studying ler..werking already..

20. When was the last tyme u chat with 5?
omg dats like 1 wk ago i think...soo long..have to get updates from him=)

21. Is 4 single?
yesh she's alwaez single..but aniebodie who wants to get to noe her must take gd care of her..she's a gud fren who can give warmth love.

22. Say something abt 2?
she love her new ward soo much betta than her previous prcp ward..hehe

23. Wad do u tink of 3 n 6 being tgt?
my sis wit my fren..they don't even see or noe each otha unless i let them read each otha's blog..hehe

24. Describe 9.
she's a fren dat can keep ur secret n make u laugh n smile wen u're sad n will alwaez be ther wen u need her.

25. Wad will u do if 6 n 7 fight?
they wont fight lar cux they hv been frens fer 3 years n norin is soft spoken n give n take while nisa is sumone who alwaez sympthise ppl easily..aww so sweet rite both of them..

26. Do u like 8?
Yesh n she's my 1st poly fren so she's special..i love n miss u gal..

ps: i hate u fer everyting..i wished dat i won't hv fallen hard fer u...

2009-05-17T18:52:00.003+08:00

I just dunoe how to put it into werds...
sumtymes i find u very annoying n wud scold u unintentionally
sumtymes u wud be sarcastic wif me n said dat its all a joke
sumtymes u wud say dat i dun sacrifice enuff fer u
sumtymes i dun tink dat u love me wholeheartedly
sumtymes i tink dat u dun care fer me n dat im not important to u
sumtymes ur sweet words just make me feel dat im the special one
sumtymes u wud show me loads of love by hugging n kissing me n assuring me dat im the only 1 fer you
sumtymes i wud be touched by how much u love me...
im confused...n with my shift werk,i dun think dat we can mit often...
i do lurve u but im sorie dat we can't spent tym overnite like we used to dear
i hope u understand..at dat very point wen u said as to y i can't sacrifice fer u..
im reallie disappointed n sad..ive known u fer 4years ayang n u said like dat..
dis is life..werk n money is impt besides love dat y i wana carve a career with loads of money so dat in tym to come,we wud hv an easy life..
m i wrong to say that..
i wish life was neva complicated..

2009-05-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

After 5 days of werking finalie i get my DO on sat n sun wic is tdy n tmr...so im gona slip as long as i can to pay back my loss...today went to get my graduation robe..i so can't wait..another 2 more weeks..had yet to buy my graduation top..i just dunoe wad to wear..n sister granted all d 4 of us DO..shiok or wad..yeay!!! Paydae in another 10 more daez..i hope the pay is betta than last mth..saw pavalam during NP orientation in ttsh..hehe..staff nurse or wad..i love my werk..have yet to complete the checklist..left 1mths plus to complete it..soo rushing sei..starting my nite in 2wks time..besh nyer..da tu wif my preceptor plak tu..=)..i hope im able to be independant fully in time to come..can feel the heavy responsibility on my shoulder tp i don't mind as getting the pay is satisfying enuff...wee!!! I love my new lifeee...

2009-05-11T22:54:00.005+08:00

the kenduri at mamiyam's house was a super success n kecoh-rable..unfortunately i didnt manage to take pics wit kiki due to her shyness cux its her 1st trip ther...n i managed to coax her to come fer kenduring despite unforseen circumstance,amcm can be counsellor tk..hehee.im getting the hang of my new title SN..hehe..n my colleagues all made it fun n worthwhile to werk in dat kind of environment..yeay!!!i learnt alot today n will rmbr wadeva im taught..trust me i wont dissapoint u..=). i want my bonus can i be confirmed now..need to wait anotha 6mths more..super long wait..i hope it wud be worthwhile..lurves..

2009-04-23T23:13:00.002+08:00

This is my 3rd week of orientation n all the four of us had been assigned to one preceptor each n it is the same as the previous tyme during our prcp..orientation is soo fun..the stress had yet to build up on me..pay dae tmr wohoo can wait..even thou its pro-rated but im steel thankful thers still salary fer us...im super broke...

Todae was so classic..'bobby' dats wad MJ named it suddenly appeared on our locker shelves..debs spotted it n suddly shouted n panicked like hell..i was shocked n disgusted by bobby...then debs pushed julz wic in turn pushed me..we were literally walking like penguin n kangaroo..super funny..i kep laughing at the incident..aft dat we went to have lunch fer 2hrs in the tearoom..we tot bobby had disappeared..but suddly it appeared in front of me at the wal..i shouted n then yadanar came to our rescue...she wanted to kill it wit a paper in her hand but failed..so lastly she just catch bobby with her own bare hands..omg i was freaking disgusted..then she went near MJ n showed her bobby..i steel can visualise how MJ face was cramped up n panucked..super funny sei..aft all dat laughters,i slept fer 45mins in the tea room..was super tired despite hving enuf slip...at 3pm went fer a tok regarding importance of documentation n a case study regarding UBGIT s/t DU...kiki u need to noe dix abbreavation..hehe..nursing term sei..anw there was refreshment n points awarded fer each lecture program...im lurving my nursing life..hv to complete checklist by the end of 5th mth..so kanchong lar seyy...but its part n parcel of life...ooh im all gear up fer challenges...hving laerdal assessment tmr wit female cath assessmt..hv to go n prepare fer it tmr..chiows...gudnite..

2009-04-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

Yeah grandpa have woke up frm his previous deteorating state..im soo hapie..thanks god fer making him live longer...anw as i was surfing the net,i stumbled upon n old photo of mine..so the kental larh..kae larh im tired now..wana tuck in to bed..waiting fer sunday to payback my overdue sleep..=)

2009-04-14T20:14:00.002+08:00

Grandpa just got admitted to hospital because he hasn't been urinating fer the past 3 hrs..uncle brought him to hospital because his bladder was distended...at 2 am ystd grandpa asked uncle to go home n he said dat he wud b okae..but sudd my father received a phonecall later saying dat my grandpa is now in comatose stage n he is now on mechanical ventilator...im so shocked n i can't believe wadeva they r saying..i fyl very sad..because he used to be a healthy kicking man n now i can't even communicate wif him...i hope god will make him get betta soon n live longer..i miss his kecoh..grandpa stay strong..il pray hard so dat evrything wud get back to normal...=(

2009-04-13T20:00:00.005+08:00

Orientation is super tiring lar seyy..canot take it frm 8-5pm..i prefer shift werk larh at least can sleep longer..Graduation coming up on 26May..i soo can't wait..its a super big event fer me..n im sure i wana invite all my loved ones to attend..i just hope i can get an extra invitation card..hv yet to register online fer the rsvp...will b renting robes fer graduation ceremony..have to shop fer clothes n skirts..i hope sister can grant my off fer dat dae itself..i dun care,i wana take as much pic as i can..last tyme il be stepping in nyp unless im taking my advanced dip..kiki is gonna b enrol into nyp soon as nursing student..keturunan or wad..at least we got the same language to tok to each otha..im super broke now wif barely a few tens of dollars to survive fer 2 wks..haish..no choice but to ikat perot..dad is so sweet to give me a 2GB memory card to me becux he hv 4GB memory card..yipee hv more space in my fone...the previous sim card has a memory of 512MB so pathetic..

Im missing my ayang terribly..2 daez of not miting= crazy in love,missing his kiss n hugs,n voice..y ive grown more attached to him also i dunoe...i guess becux u hv changed fer the betta fer me...arghh its just so hard..i wan to see u everydae ayang..i hope to mit u soon dear..dere's so manie things i wana tok to u...*loveudeeply*..n all the best fer ur IPPT dix wed dear...

ps to my dear fren: hope dat ur dad will get well soon..insyallah everything will go back to normal as long as u cherish him n give him a lot of love n pray to god..mudah mudahan allah will help him to get well soon..be strong kae...he's a nice man,im sure he will be alrite..

2009-04-12T21:53:00.004+08:00

A new chapter in my life

Started orientation on 6 April..was excited n looking forward to it n finally it came..1st wk of orientation just passed..alot of lectures going on dat kept us sleepy n times..but wad i love abt it is dat the 4 of us get to go back to our previous prcp ward..sadly lyz was transferred to anotha ward..it was a shocking news fer us but nevertheless look on the bright side,we r steel on the same level..did alot of camwhoring with the gerls..i love my gerls...they r fun to hang out n gossip is a MUST..n sheil welcome to the club..hehe..werking will be an enjoyable experince wit MJ,huds n debs ard..hehee...

The whole of last wk onlie managed to mit up wit boify on fri n sat...missed him alot..it was so swit wen he sudd grab me n hug me so tightly..thanx ayang..i loved u so much...n i will alwaez love u..we went bowling n escape theme park...n the best thing was it was his virgin trip ther..i was so honoured sei..n then it was the 1st tyme i tried go kart single plak tu..lg2 i dun noe hw to drive..was super nervous at 1st..wen i was in the kart...i decided to just trie gving all my best n the shockest thing i got 3rd place while ayang was last..so cute..hehe..wll go again once i get my pay becuz inverter,rainbow was closed..so tk gerek tp we went to take the wet n wild...super adrenaline rush feeling overwhelm me..so shiok..ayang was scared to take viking..hahaa..takot height kepe ayang..but he promised me dat he will take it the next tyme..after dat we cabbed back to yishun because we were super wet n den we decided to eat at lestari..lapar sungguh sei...then after dat i went home n was super tired..slept the whole of todae till 5pm before going fer jogging..kae got to go n slip cux hv to wake up early at 7pm..toodles..

2009-04-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

thanx ayang fer all ur patience of hving to tolerate my nonsense eventhou im alwaez the one at fault..n alwaez pujok-ing me wen im mad n merajok..n alwaez neva fail to be by my side at evry sec,min n hour wen i needed u...il alwaez cherish all our moments together n wud be faithful to u...thanx fer spicing up our love life despite the long r/s dat is bound to get bored..i love u mohd yazid..hapie 23rd monthsary..hope dat we wud be tgt as long as we can..=)

2009-04-01T23:58:00.007+08:00

Tuesday went out wif MJ n Nyl...bkn dolphin eik..to yishun to get my nursing pants altered fer work..wee..trie to shorten it a bit as it look like a baggy pants dat can almost sweep the whole of my ward..hehee..then went to LJS while waiting fer Nyl..we bought 3 tickets fer the mall cop show since we cancelled the karaoke thingy due to circumstances...there was oni 6-8ppl in the whole of the theatre n we just snuggle comfortably on the chair..n it was freaking cold..

the movie was super hilarious..me,MJ n Nyl was laughing our head off during the climax of the movie..its quite a nice show to watch..its worth the tickets..hee..

then ayang fooled me at 12am abt him hving scandal behind my back..n i really believed him..it didn't cross my mind dat it was an april fool day..i was so upset back then but then he let out the suspense dat it was oni a joke..i was so relieved sei...

Today went out wif fira n fira's fren khair...we went to play pool n bought SASA makeup product..it was so fun larh wif all the jokes,kecoh n laughing..fira won the pool challenge against me n khair..maeb luck was on her side..hahaa..then as usual we just kutuk2 ppl dat was just walking pass..aww i love u bestie...we shud do diz more often kaez...then met ayang at cityhall as he promised to pick me up..then we drop off at yishun n went safra to play bowling..2 rounds lagi..so shiok lar n the best ting is dat i won the challenge eventhou i suck at bowling..4 more daez to werkforce..less freedom coming up in my life with little social life..ooh i hate dat..

there's alot of things i wana do...
-facial n spa
-braces
-revamp my whole wardrobe
-getting to fit into clothes dat's one size down..
once i get my betta pay..heee..

2009-03-31T22:40:00.016+08:00

ooh im so loving my weekends with all the action packed stuff..from fri to sun..hahaa..shiok or wad..reunion wif sec sch frens,nisa 20th belated bdae wif cycling,meeting MJ fer coffee tgt with heyr..i loved playing musical chairs in starbucks..hahaa..*i noe u noe* n norin thanx fer the lil bear keychain dat u made fer me..dats so swit of u..*hugs*

ps: ur post realie made me realise how important u treat our frenship..aww im so touched..i repeat it again..i love you too..hehee...weesh!!!

2009-03-26T22:44:00.007+08:00

Had been sleeping late at ard 4am fer the past few daez..my dark circle is beginning to appear alrd..need to buy concealer to conceal my dark circle..da mcm panda lar siak..hehe..
met up wit fira bestie to hv a makeover of my hair..eventhou most of my frens told me not to cut even my ayang..i so look like a small kid wit dix new hairstyle..lucky fira was dere to accompany me or else il be bored to death..haha..coloured n highlighted my hair wit a more natural colour plus a haircut wic onli cost $80..wee!! got my pay todae so hapie larr..finalie can go shopping..i hv been resisting temptation frm 6march...i wana revamp my whole wardrobe lar..cehba mcm org kaya plak..haa.yeay tmr going mariam's hse fer a reunion gathering n miting boify fer a movie date..ooo i love my weekends..
Quoted from premmy's blog"Met up with Naz on friday and we had a heart to heart.She is the first friend I befriended in Poly.So yesh,she's special."..aww dats so sweet of u..hearts u..u r special to me too gal..=)

the cap look so cute lorh..its the new technique of highlighting hair..i so look like an alien..hahaa.

ps:u make my live worth living..

2009-03-24T14:39:00.002+08:00

I miss NYP and student's hospital attachement..can i steel be sweet 17 again...

kiki thankiu so much fer the pic above..i sure love surprises..mae we b in laws alwaez..hehe.

2009-03-24T01:29:00.002+08:00

Camwhore in the toilet wit ella..sempat sei..hehe..anw went to esplanade wit ella at 3 pm to c sang merlion..no lar..actualie went ther to let ella relieve steam becux she was so stressed up abt her family probs n frens..so i decided to b an angel to listen out her prob while looking at the river swayed from one side to anotha..anw coincidently saw yee gin n deborah at the esplanade..the SGH ppl had started their orientation todae..so all the best to rab n xueling..hehe..left 2 more wks to wekforce..omg i dread werk alot lar..

heyr msged me n said dat he just wokeup at 3pm..da agaknyer..lucky lar lau tk he wana cui me..dix is the werk of org tkde keje..hehe..anw saw mugilan who actualie came up to me just to shake hands n ask me wad m i doing her..stupid qn lar..tok ntok wif ella abt wad wud b our dreamguy n wen wud b the age dat we actualie wud settle down..hmm..maeb 5 yrs tyme i dunoe..sudd heyr called me saying dat he wana ton with me but since both pokai so we had to wait after paydae wic is 25 fer him n 26 ferme..not fair..u have to blanja me 1st..haha..thick skin lar nas..then head home ard 9pm frm esplanade..

Ayang called me at 12pm n said dat he missed me after 4 daez of not miting..aww..dats so sweet dear..i missed u too..but heyr more..hehe.just kidding..takmo jealous..then he actualie asked me to book car license nxt mth tgt with him..i want to but im scared dat the orientation wud distract me n my 6mths probation wud stressed me further so i tot dat i wanted to push it to Nov wen im more settle down wit werk..but ayang die2 wana take nxt mth wif me...hmm i c 1st kae dear..i dun mind u going ahead 1st..hehe..i wana own my own car in the future lar so easy to drive to werk...wee..da start brangan lar tu nas..tk abes..*shy*

Anw thankz to kiki dat i can now edit photo using photscape..so shwit..thankiu my adek ipar..hehe.thanks fer being dere especially late nite just to entertain my nonscence gerl...walau mcm mane mepek pon u lyn..hahaa..can't wait to mit u lor..next tyme mit me mux give me choc cream chip..my favourite lar sei..hehe..

2009-03-22T01:21:00.007+08:00

Well ystd had to wake up at 9am to packed my swimming stuff as i wanted to head off to the wild wild wet with heyr n rab...since she had the free ticket to wild2 wet fer NHG family day..so off i went to simei 1st to eat my breakfast since his mom insisted on it..lucky i steel rmbr how to walk to his place..hehe..then just wen i reached his house..his mom said its been long since she last saw me..i just said dat i was bz enjoying my holidae..wee!!! then ate breakfast honeystars cereal with him n off we go to pasir ris taking bus 12..1st tyme i heard his uncle toking to me lar..hehe..anw the bus ride took onli 30mins n it was a very sunny weather..i just cant wait to jump into the pool..*berpeluh gler lar*.

Just as we reached ther at ard 12.45pm,we tried koling rab till there was no response..we kol at least 28tymes...decided to wait all the wae till 3pm outside the wild2 wet n then make our wae to pasir ris beach 1st..n thank god she called at 2pm so hurrily head into wild2 wet..its my virgin trip ther lor..hehe..so we jumped into the lazy river 1st then went to the waves...managed to get onto the float n swayed with the waves..the we played pool catching with rab,heyr n rab sister n frens..heyr n rab's fren had to be the catcher..n i lose..hehe..i was stuck at the 1.8m place..the wave kept pushing me back..hehe..then the weather took a turn..it sudd became dark..n me n heyr get out frm the pool n went to play the surf thingy wer u wud slide up n down with two person on the float,1 in front n the 2nd at the back..but the wild2 wet ceased operation at dat tyme..it was so sad i didnt get to try it..nehmind the next tyme i can go again..hehe..

We decided to head off since heyr was feeling super chilled..went into the toilet n discovered dat dere was a lot of ppl queing up fer the toilet..i dunoe hw long i had to wait in order to shower..so in the end heyr decided dat its betta fer us to go bathe at pasir ris beach toilet..the we hurried ther wif my swimming costume..so kental larh..ppl tot y i was wet evn before i head into the sea..haha..just wen i reached the toilet showering part,there was not even a single shower room functioning..so in the end i had to go the male side..so terpakse tebalkn muke sei..ppl wud tink im a transex larh..haha..heyr terpakse cui kt luar..lucky no guys enter the shower room..

Mandi cowboy n then truz head to macd..boy im so hungry lar n ystd fer the 1st tyme me n heyr ate alot..i ate mchicken wit mcwings n fries n coke while he ate mcspicy with nuggets n freis wit coke..hahaa..so super full mcm tanak jln..then we decided to take bus 12 to bugis wic took 1hr plus to get ther..he put on his headplug n shared wit me..semua lagu jiwang2 lar..i just don't like one of the qn dat he posed on me..i dun mind wad kind of character n fren u r..as long as i hv fun giong out wif u dat is more than enuff..thnx heyr i enjoyed it alot..

Reached bugis at 7.30pm sei..then we go head fer the specs shop..wanted to find something dat suits him becuz he doesnt wore contacts aniemore..hehe..n we spotted a frameless white specs dat made him look so innocent..hehe tp cute..

heyr n me

muke boring while waiting fer rab till 2pm

me n heyr in the bus otw to bugis

minah wif facade n mat m'sia college nerd..hehe

2009-03-20T23:32:00.002+08:00

Todae was a very enjoyable dae fer me...met up premmy at ecp at 12pm..she packed some sandwich fer our mini picnic..while i bought a sausage pizza fer the picnic..so i took 966 to ecp,lucky got straight bus frm mslg mrt..the journey took at least 1 hr..super far..managed to reached on tyme so waited 10mins fer premmy then off we go to ecp...we walked n booked a seating place fer us to place all our food..luckily premmy brought her camera so we started camwhoring..suddly rm behind we heard a voice dat ask us weather we needed help fer anieone to take a pic fr us..its not dat i was hallucinating..it was real..so we turned n saw this caucasian guy dat was willing to help us..dats so sweet larh..they r realie kind souls..hehe

then just as we were enjoying our food suddly litle raindrops started to fall on to the table top..few seconds later it was raining heavily..we quickly ran to the shelter n took cover..so we waited at least 1n half hour fer the rain to stop..then we talked abt our childhood moments,poly life,our conlict wif group members n boifriends..so cute n funny larh..tok n tok n tok non stop till we were thirsty so head down to 7-11 to buy drinks n sat down at MacD..then sudd premmy was shocked to c dat it was alrd 4pm n she promised her fren dat she wud mit her at town at 3.30pm but her fone cudnt received msg n afraid dat her batt will die,she off her fone..her fren was super pissed but eventuall cooled down after a while..

so on our wae home thers dix journalist who eventually ask our opinion abt d incident ecp blowjob n handjob in broad daylight in public..i was shocked to hear dat ppl r becoming more open larh..i mean i dun mind seeing ppl kiss or pact in the public but BJ..ewww...so i said i neva came across anieone daring to do in broad daylight..some usually do it in the park at nite near bushes..then the journalist sudd said u mean on the floor..i said i dunoe larh cux they were hiding behind the bushes sei..hehe..we put down our name...so we gonna b famous fer 1 dae..hehe

Off we wen t to parkway parade to window shop..i reallie like the cotton on stuffs larh..its super affortable n comfie..i can't wait fer my pay to SHOP..im seriously broke wif onli 20 plus to survive fer 5 daes..pathetic larh sei..n 2 more wks to start werking..omg life is spinnig like a wheel n in no tyme il be married..eee tanak karh..im scared..i mean wad if u married ur husband n after so manie yrs dat had passed.the passion will eventualy die down..scary larh sei..dat means i realie got to trust my husband in oreder to marry them..media realie does influence alot sei..hahaa..

here i m eating my fav famous amos btterscotch wif pecans..yum2..lurves..i like sweet things dat can make me high..wohoo..dats y ayang u r my sugar candy..yeay!!I miss u..=)

2009-03-18T23:54:00.002+08:00

Had to wake boify up at 7am fer him to go to werk...but he was too tired n decided to take MC..1st tyme sei tu pon he was scared to take MC...apeda!! Yeah2 MC means he can spent more tyme with me..hehe..hapie larh sei matae aner tk hapie..anw i accompany him to mslg poly..tu pon we went at 3pm cux evryone was super lazy..n usually polyclinic hv a very long q..lucky fer us it onli took 30 mins to see doc n pharmacist..boify doesnt hv to fork out a single cent..kate NS..hehe..

Then off we went home to rest n eat dinner before we go play badminton..unfortunately the court under my block was taken so we had to find anotha court..in the end we had to play beside a playground which was so squeezy..but nothing matters as long as we had fun..n i had my 1st neoprint wif boify n shanaz(my lil sis) ystd..so cute kn..after 4 yrs of knowing him den i get to take neoprint wif him..at least i still hv memories..so i keep the pic in my cute teddy bear wallet..hehe..

after the badminton game shanaz,boify n me played the ABC game dat i once played wif boify family..i steel rmbr we argued regarding the tangerine orange wif yazri n mother-in-law..hehe..kekek i tell u..because i can't tink of anie fruits other than that..but steel i gained 10 pts..mux noe hw to influence them to believe larh..hehe..my sis win wif a score of 500 followed
by me wif a score of 440 n boify wif 415..

suddenly boify on the song 'ada cinta' which made strong gush of emotion in me just overcome me..i didnt noe tears start to trickle down my cheeks..a lot of memories just kept flooding my mind..haish i tot once everything's over n i'll b a stronger person..well evryone hv their fragile past..lets put dat aside..

I got B+ fer my prcp..im soo hapie larh..1st tyme in my 3 yrs dat i get a gd grade fer my attchment...so my hard werk does pays off with all the stress dat was resting on my head..i finalie did it..i steel rmbr the last 3mths before the start of prcp i was so scared dat i wud fail n cant manage wit the role of a SN..but evrything werk out well n smoothly wif the support of my family n most importantly my boify..mohd yazid..thanx fer being ther wen i was down n wen i needed u the most..i noe u did put up wit my attitude..syg kamu slalu dear!!

2009-03-17T14:29:00.021+08:00

boify's family tree

my favourite younger sis

this is my anniversary collage dat i made fer him few mths back

boify's lil sis-baby

my valentine gift frm boify

ella n me at ecp

kak arni n me

bestie n me

ella wit me eating chips

fira n me before going kendarat

boify posing wit bike fer me to take his pic

i had to be a model fer facial seminar of Amway..hehe

im back in action..omg my holidae is damn shiok..i loved my holidae alot..but sadly its ending soon like abt in 3wks tyme n i'll be a full time nurse..wohoo..

My holidae had been a whole loads of fun n action packed:
-movie marathon at home
-surfing internet playin games
-get togather wit besties fira..i finallie get u back all to myself..i love u sis
-went KL wit MJ to watch jason mraz concert..oh boi i enjoyed it aloadss..will upload pics once i get my thumdrive to download all the pics
-shopping fer dresses
-catching up wit munii...
-having dinner wit boify..accompany him watch football at 3am..tonning with him
-family gathering wif boify's family..bonding or wad..hehe
-bbq at smbwg wit boify family wic in turn led to a rain disaster dat lead us going to mamiyam's house fer indoor bbq...
-getting to noe his family sedare all was so much fun...they r so frenly like wawan,comel,kak mimi,mak oteh(bdae gerl on 15 march),kak adek,abg anjaz,cik aziz..like i feel im alrd part on his family
-sleeping at his aunty's hse n boify hse..
-getting to noe my in laws-adek ipar Siti Nurashikin..
-miting up wif ex colleagues kak arni
-watching kuda kepang show
-going to movies wit boify n ecp fer the 1st tym wit him to cycle..
-sleeping late toking to close fren ella...
-bonding wif my siblings

i just feel so blessed dat dix holidae i felt so pampered with the company of boify n my wonderful frens n siblings..thanks fer making evry lil memories enjoyable before i even start werk..i'll rmbr all of it fer life!!!!wohoo...

2009-02-10T22:21:00.002+08:00

Wad did i do to deserve all this...
even if u r fcuking stress u dun hv the rite to shout at me okay..
its gud enuff dat i didnt get mad at u n started quarrelling like i used to do..
i've mended my wae..
all i wan is ATTENTION..
do u eva understand me..
u hv been neglecting me fer the past few daes..
sweet words doesnt make up fer the attention dat i need..
i tot of cooking ur fav dish fer the 1st tyme in my life on v-dae since u dont want to celebrate the dae..
but i dun think dat it will eva work-out..
its too much fer me to handle it now..
im tired,real tired..
i wish dat i cud just lie down n forget everything n to start my life all over again...

2009-02-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

Went out with MJ just now...fer jogging..hahaa..muke semua mcm bdk sec 4 lar sei..kekek nk mampos..anw i managed to finish 6 rounds jogging non stop..gud or wad..before that was movie marathoning at home..watching the hindi film just remind me of me,u n him..the good old tyme..well dats all memories..after jogging,went to swimming complex to swim..bought a child ticket..hehe..notti2,luckily no 1 saw..then went to submerged myself in deep pool...it was a very nice feeling dat i feel so loved by the waters...style kepe..yeay!! Have a nice chat wit MJ...if MJ not in dis werld,i wont hv a partner fer my NJ..hehe..then chubs wont hv sum1 to kol lily n bear wont hv sum1 to call baby..hehe..klakar kepe..anw i enjoyed my dae alot with u..we shud hang out again..im waiting fer the blood donation thingy..thanx fer the iron tablet gal..

I've been thinking alot lately about us...
Our love kept fluactuating like high tides n low tides..
till at some point of time,i dun even noe whether u reallie love me because of my superficial or my inner beauty..
its true sumtym i don't express my love even thou hw much i miss u..
its alreadie my nature..
at 1 point of tym u wud show me so much love till im scared dat u love me more than i love u..
i noe its betta to be loved than loving sumbody..
but im scared dat 1 dae if i were to eva hurt u..
wad wud become of u n me..
i dun even noe hw to tell all my feelings n tots to u as u wud think dat im thinking too much..
its just hard hving to contain all the feeling in my heart like a prisoner..
i hope dat 1 dae u wud listen to voice of dix heart of mine..

2009-02-07T11:53:00.002+08:00

PRCP ended on 29 jan 2009..which marks the new life fer me..no more school in NYP..bye NYP..time pass by so fast..now its the 2mths holidae which im gonna spent like crazy going out with frens n family before i start my full swing RN..miss passing report thou..met up with juliana on tues n thurs..went to collect uniform on tues...da feeling2 like SN sei..hahaa..then went to eat at BK while reminiscing our prcp moments..hehe..especialie all the gossips..then zoom back to woodlands to get my starbucks choc cream chip..yum2 delicious..then head to meet ayang fer dinnner...end the dae with a smile..on thurs went out with juls again but a pity lyz can't follow or else it wud b more fun..yeay!!!Went to hosp to visit sherlyn whose hving bleeding pr..went we reached ther she went fer colono so waited till 3.30pm..bought fer her tigger soft toy n a card..get well soon kae.Can't go fer med checkup due to my menses..bohooho..if not skali arung more ez..get done n over with..

Perhaps il go med checup nxt wk..hv yet to complete the whole stack of the registration fer SN..went to cotton on to trie out the shades..it was so funny sei because most of the shades were either too big fer my face or too small..kept laughing like mad..juls forgotten to take pic eventhou she promise me dat she will..hehe..nxt tyme is a must kae.loves.
Met up with my beloved bestie after 1 yr..without her bf..thankgod.it was strange dat she asked me weather i was free..n she asked me out..hapie larr seyy..then went to buy contacts n tok about our past n future..kutuk2 whoeva dat pass by us is our pastime..hope after her attachment she is free to go out wif me n munii..its a must sei.

1 more mth to the trip dat im luking forward..shiok or wad..lurves!!
Heard dat thers gonna be a class gathering at bernards place..i hope dat its gonna b a suceess larr..N i wana new hairstyle..i love sheila's hair sei..so nice n ladylike..hehe..

2009-01-10T23:54:00.003+08:00

Todae im on afternoon shift...well alot of things to f/u such as tracing bld result n hving to despatched 3 pt UFEME n urine c/s...while doing the changes,i realised my bed 2 pt's u/e/cr result still not back..wen to check in the system bt it said dat pt's bld collected..so i asked my SN...then she realised 1 of the SN wrongly click the collect button n didnt pass to us...then had to ask my 2nd senior to take bld fer us...todae ther's dix medication error dat made preceptor super mad...mixtard bd was suppose to give at 8pm was given at 11am..no choice we just cover up lor...anw i love werking wif wan zhen..tot dat she was fierce bt she's super nice like mickey mouse..she just left me with 12 pt but im glad dat i can handle 12 pt at the end of 9pm by myself..wohoo..shiok or wad..

im liking dix job a lot larr sey...oni the dr is fon...signature meant alot esp wen it comes to IMR..but he kept saying dat its not impt..it wont even take u more than 1 sec lar to sign..anw tmr im aftern shift..hope i dun werk wif that fierce SN whom i hate..pls..3 more wks to go n off to 2 mths holidae..cant wait to go shopping to destress myself..anw to all those prcp student jiayou u got the last leg of the race to finish..im sure all of u can do it...

2009-01-08T19:34:00.033+08:00

Went to merlion ystd after hving a tough time handling 14 cases in the morning...it was super duper hectic...had my evaluation on mon..was so hapie becux sister said dat i hv got a lot of positive feedback frm the staff n im alwaez so cheerful...den my preceptor wanted to let me go but im afraid to work alone..she did give me the confident to be brave n believe in myself in wadeva dat im doing...wee left 3 more weeks to end of prcp..boy i can't wait fer d last dae..anw wen doing changes with sister we even had time to play game on who can find the name ryles tube on the biling form...she was nice afterall on dat dae...n i went back to sch to post my mc..saw premmy on the wae..yesh gerl u owe me a big outing before ur prcp..i miss u gal...im lurving my life way betta..i hope everydae is gonna b a hapie dae...=)

kissing scene=censored

2 corpse

Retarded ladies

step cute jer ella

sweet kan the pic

best of fren

nas holding the big merlion

2008-12-26T16:33:00.015+08:00

Chalet at DownTown East with Yazid's family

Bowling at 4am at ehub...very sleepy sia..

kak adek wif adrian

Kak nor wif her hubby

Comel sleeping after 2 daez of no sleep

Me n ayang

all bz playing psp...

Yazid's bro..Yasri..muke step cute sei..hehe

manje gving out goodies to the kids

sisters n cousins

makbusu kids: christina n umairah

atok,nenek with adrian

gathering

2008-12-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

Just reading all my frens blog about losing someone they truly loves just makes me sad..even im not in their shoes now but it reminded me of my grandad who pass away while i was in sec 1...how i missed him n those tymes dat he wud spent with me n pampering me like his own child..6 years had passed...it did make me think of him weneva i see an old man who hv abit of his character n feature..i noe its all in the past..well we learn frm our past n live in the present..

Todae werk was super kanchong...had alot to do but lil time..i seriously need to go fer time management..i sucks at serving medication..still can't perform independantly yet..got a lot to learn n i get confused at times..6 patient is just nice but hving to help juniors just make me felt rather difficult to cope...both paperwerks n basic care matters alot...haish..i kept telling myself to function independantly but im not there yet..Theres dix SN who like comparing me n anotha grp of students...siti was fuming mad..its true dat we r not there yet n our report passing is just average..but steel dix things take time n experience..u can scold me as many times as u wan but still im not gonna give up..its gud enuf dat we did help juniors to do basic care unlike ur students..get it..

One of my colleague cried because she couldn't take it dat the SN scolded her fer a minor thing abt bladder scan..all i can sae is just let her words go in one ear n go out the otha ear...dis is so normal throughout the learning process..still coping..my cubicle is damn heavy with 3 DIL patient..haish..did discharge fer 1 patient who is going NH..prepare the EDSS n medication n called family to register patient to the NH...1st time im discharging patient so was quite blur..but nehmind next time il trie to do it myself..thanx fer the support n guidance siti..i love u aloads...i dunoe weather im regretting joining nursing or not..doctor even ask me weather did i regret it..hmm it kept me thinking fer a while.I love nursing but the workloads is heavy...all i need is time...

Love matters is not going on well now..SOUR.

2008-12-10T23:59:00.003+08:00

Todae taking 6 case itself is so hard to struggle sei...on 1 hand i need to do turning on the other hand i need to serve meds..super bz..n add anotha burden, i have yet to finish my 4 reports including new admission...left onli 30 mins to passing reports..at dat moment i feel like pulling every single strand of my hair..n sumore i pity my junior because she still had not do her routine parameters..i wished to help but even my report had yet to finish...

During passing over report this one bloody HCA speak her language dat we students didn't help the junior..WTF?? I myself struggling with my werk n i did help out with the 2 turnings ok...if u dunoe anieting just shut ur mouth..then i had to pass report to dix SN whom i dislike since the 1st dae...its okae she like to ask qn but once she get to noe dat we dun follow up pt frm the start,she will give u dat glare..come on larr i first time take dix cubicle sei...she alweaz prey on students..do i alwaez hv the PLZ HATE ME tag on my head..damn pissed sia..no choice man i hv to werk with her fer the next 3 yrs..just thn onli lar..

Tmr steel hv to pass report to her n 2 of my pateient suspect VRE..haiyo..sway kepe..tmr il trie to manage my time n finish my report by 6pm...from there its easier to follow up on my patient in case she qn me again..im readie fer a brand new dae..

Push me if u wan..il tell u dat i steel can take it..

2008-12-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

Its been so long dat i've abandoned this lovely blog of mine so todae i vow to at least blog 3 times a week..hehe.this weekend had been a fun weekend..we celebrated khair's 2oth bdae..a surprise dat kept everyone waiting n still paid off at 4am..

HAPIE BDAE MOHD KHAIR!!!!!

i hope u like the surprise alot..but its a pity sheila can't make it...nehmind we still hv the countdown with the cliques..i hope all cud make it..its gonna be a hell of a time i tell u..i wana loads n loads of party larr...weee!!!

Anw went out wif juliana to get a christmas present fer my NM...shiok kepe..sway jer dpt dier..realie dunoe wad she likes n budget gotta be $10...susah to get stuffs fer her lg2 age gap..so finalie decided to get her a $10 Cold Stoage Voucher...so off we go fer present searching fer juliana's AN...but halfway went to get our nails done at far east fer just $5...nail polish colour included..gerek or wad..i feel so pampered sia...then went to perfum shop at lucky plaza..super cheap lar their perfume..tk lei angs sei..semua bauh so sweet like like me...kae krg jgn muntah..hehe..then juls got a perfume with a sweet smelling smell fer her AN..hope dat she likes it..AN wadeva..heh..her trademark...hehe

Im praying so hard dat i dun get bahalul fer anie of my shift or else im gona hv a frus n moody dae..her plz plz plz just irritate me alot sia...

lucky tmr aftn shift...still can slip more..shiok kepe..wohoo..gonna take 6 case tmr...nice.
im gonna slip now so pray all the best to me..hehe...

2008-11-23T00:15:00.007+08:00

I LOVE MY PRECEPTOR...SITI NURASHIKIN...she's so nice lar n willing to teach me,she even treat me as like a fren n ate tgt in the tearoom..like wad SN cora said its betta to ask stupid qn during studet yrs rather than being stupid forever..heh anw im getting hang of it n adapting betta to the ward..i tried to speak up to the nurses n sumhow create a bond between them to facilitate betta werking r/s..so far all the nurses are very nice to wards me xcept fer dis one HCA which me n Np student dislike..she wants everything to be perfect n is very fussy..there's this tyme i took para fer bed 3 n 4 first rather than bed 1 n 2 becuz the latter both r on 2 hrly para so i wana took it at 8 inatead of 7.50am..just a difference of 10 mins n she make dat fcuking face..i just ignored..its not a big deal wad...luckily its the last dae i became n AN..i neva wana work with her again..

Mon gonna be the start of SN job..2 weeks realie pass by so fast..left with onlie 10 more weeks..im sure tyme will pass by fast n in no tyme im gonna be a full-pledged SN..the NCE are starting to make rounds so i hv to realie revise on my werk especialie chest tube n medication..hv yet to do presentation on medication..have to hand in to siti on tues..so far im coping well..the stress had yet to build in me but sumhow im getting real nervous..from a lil baby who noes nuts abt nursing is groomed to be nurse who is going to take care of patients basic needs,hygiene n treatment...style kan..

Wen im in sec sch,i realie hv no aspiration on what i wana be...but ever since joining the red cross in sch gave me the exposure to diiferent situation wer ive got to see patient's suffering till they took their last breath..it struck my head as to y not i be a nurse..at least i get to help patient be cured from diseases n bring a smile to their face...frm there my passion start to grow...i think dat i chose the right kind of job dat suits me..wadeva happens i will not give up...i noe dix 3 mths is gonna be a terrible n a hell journey fer me but in life nothing is ez..everything we must learn the hard wae..agreeable...

Kae then il update more on my PRCP the next tyme hehe...to all those prcp students i wana wish u all the best..cya on 30 Jan 2009..lurves!!

2008-11-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

3 weeks of geron posting finally ended...wohoo.I did enjoyed the posting in ward 7a cux all the staffs are very nice..especially affni, siti, jiya ,n kak sarina. If i had the chance to werk there,i would surely take up the chance...did learn how to take case n give report..it was so cool..at first i was scared but slowly i picked up my confidence n managed to take at least 2 case..

My CI was so nice...dat was the 1st time i've gotten a nice CI who isn't dat fierce n prompt u while u're doing ur skills..i love my attachment..wee..now i can't wait fer PRCP..which is in 5 days time..gonna be bz fer whole of 3mths sei...i hope i can managed with the workload..

Durin the weekends,went to watch high sch musical 3 with my sisters..it was quite a romantic movie..i like the part wen gabrielle called troy in the song now or never..so cute...its a must watch..enjoyed it alot..also watched coffin wif ayang but it was not as gud as wad i expected it to be...quite boring...

Im glad dat now my bond with my 2nd sisters is getting betta after wadeva dat had happen..thankgod.Its true dat ade hikmah di sebaleknyer...i will treasure my kinship more than anieting else...

hapie 1yr 6mth anniversary ayang..im glad dat we went dix far despite all the quarrel dat we had..i admit dat i can be very unreasonable at tymes but luckily u did gave in at tymes..thanx dear..last i wana sae is i love u loads dear.

2008-09-08T14:40:00.002+08:00

Wheneva i look u into the eyes,u just make me drown with more love...
i like the wae u brushed my hair like a lil baby,it just make me so secure dat nothing else ever matter to me...
i love ur voice when u sing all the love songs to me...cux it just make me think dat im the onli one dat u eva love...
i adore all the hapie moments dat we hv by laughing,hugging,kissing,making fun of each otha...
the moment i see u,u just brought a smile on my face..
Im glad fer dis blissful happiness dat is showered upon me...
i just hope dat it will continue to remains despite all the obstacles dat we will faced tgt in the future...

2008-09-03T20:40:00.006+08:00

Its been 2 mths since i last update my blog...sorie ppl fer being comatose for sooo long...finalie exams are finished n no more exams except fer PRCP...last week was so much fun...

Monday

Fetch my lil sis after she finished her sch...went to swimming complex in woodlands to swim n just rest my mind after a hard time studying fer the exams so i realie tot that i need a reward fer dat...wee!!! Enjoyed the cool water n jacuzzi dat did help to massage my back...swam fer 1 hr plus before heading home fer dinner...

Tuesday

Gotten my pay...yahoo..so decided to blanja my whole family dinner at CWP...went to banquet since LJS n KFC was closed fer renovation. My 2nd sis n 4th sis ate chicken cutlet n chicken chop while mom ate wanton mee n me eat sweet n sour chicken with rice...was so full...then i decided to shop at john little to buy the loreal eye brightener due to dark circles dat i get for burning the midnight oil during my study break...i realie love the product larr..not dat i wana be the spokeperson..haha..

Wednesday

Met up with my ex kfc colleague to catchup with each otha's life...tok abt her n her boify..luckily she didn't get serious with him...no point wasting ur tyme fer him if he doesn't even bother to msg or replie to ur smses...u were clever enuf to think abt ur own happiness...i would be glad if u broke up with sum1 who doesn't even cherish u...lucky he was not ur 1st love...u seem to take it well thou..1 dae u will find ur dream prince..i give u my words...then we went to metro to check out celine dion perfume...wow the scent is so nice n sweet smelling..but it was ard 89 fer a 100mls bottle...branded mahh...trying to save my money to buy the perfume..u shud trie spraying the perfume n smell it...fer gerls larr..hehe...

Thursday

Went out wit sheil to bugis...went to eat at dis secret place wer heyr brought me b4...yum2 i so love their lor mee larr...see now im salivating alrd..heh..then we walk to national library to borrow books that wud accompany me thru out my holiday..borrowed 2 love stories n 1 thriller boook...twee-twee...

Friday

Outing to bugis with ayang n my family since my pay is alrd in...woohoo...bought a top dat i hv longed fer..but too bad dring fasting cannot wear so i will wait after hari raya..it was packed wif ppl...ayang fer thw 1st tyme followed me to bugis...it was kinda cute cux everywer he go he will look fer a fan n stand under it cux he cant take the heat...haha..too bad u stead with a shopaholic so mux learn hw to stand it...haha...i love u dear..

Sunday

Went out with ella to esplanade to ease her mind...cux she had lost contact with 2 precious guy in her life...i feel sorie fer her bt theres nothing dat i can help except fer a listenig ear n advice...she looks strong but can see dat she is losing her smile n patience...i hope 1 dae they will realise dat u r alweaz there by ur side n will come to regret y they didn't treasure her...be strong n hapie alweaz..maeb its tyme fer u to move on...

ella n me

2008-07-26T22:53:00.003+08:00

This week is sure a HECTIC week i must sae....
I love myself alott...n m proud dat i made it fer both socio and med-surg ICA...
N the best thing of all is i passed my CLINICAL prac...weee!!!

Gotten B+ fer socio ica...so not too bad eventhou mr clemaus sae dat it thers alot dat we can improve in order to make it an A presenation...dat didn't pull our motivation down fer med surg...

We tried our best to rationalise the diff part on patho in simpler terms by doing out a small demo using the whole class so dat it can make stydent see the picture betta...so we came on sat morning fer meeting..so unlike us huh..haha...no choice had to rush n it was last min..during presentation,we tried to help each other out in wadeva facts dat we noe...n we got a good comment frm rosy...the word is EXCELLENT presentation...was surprised wen she said dat...good job team mates!!! Give ourself three cheers-hip hip hooray...

Was nervous fer ystd prac cux i heard few student failed due to lecturer's being unreasonable...was scared dat i would be one of them so prayed hard dat i get a noce lecturer...then nurain called me n khair in...i don't wana b assessed by her cux i heard she's strict...then it was picking card time...i picked a card on suctioning..was hapie dat i didn't get ETT insertion...n i gather all the equipment n went to this sweet,new kind lecturer...she didnt exert anie pressure on me...managed to ans all the qn she asked..she asked abt wads the sign dat indicate i cud carry on with suctioning...i told her after gving air via fer 1 min then the pt is readie..but she wanted a diff ans...give all kinf of ans till i told her SPO2..then she let me carry on...pass the skills at the end...was so hapie...

had a small commotion with group..but everything settled now...after dat went to accompany memii go fer facial...then i went home first to take money so dat after dat can eat LJS with her...had a good chat abt PRCP and stuff n go walk2...its been long since i enjoyed a good talkin walk due to project stuff occupying my time...

Then met ella wit her guy fren fad...just chit chat n walk2 ard cwp until we got bored n the ard 8+ we chow frm the place...bcux of not enuff monie to topup ez link,me n ella decided to walk home...took abt 2o-25 mins like dat...furthermore the weather was cooling n just rite to walk...

Went to amk to buy swimsuit fer shanaz todae...then she was attracted to dix one red swimsuit..it was nice n cost onli $7...so cheap sei...then after dat went to yishun to eat but was so freaking pissed with the service...waited 30 mins just fer a hotplate beancurd...n they serve one plate at a time...my sis was so hungry sei..had to go to the counter 2 times...after dat i didn't hv appetite so sis finish it off...urghh..i f***king hate the service...ruin my dae larr...i think i can cook faster lar than them...egg n bencurd doesnt take dat long larr...wth...

anw looking forwrd to tmr swimming with ayang n my sis...gonna relax my mind...hah..

2008-07-18T14:05:00.005+08:00

A list of events that im buzy with:

1)Socio ICA [Finish]
2)Med Surg ICA 2
3)Theory test [Finish]
4)Practical test
5)FYP product presentation
6) End year exam

Had morning practical practise session at 8am...decided to practise n i realised dat there is alot of doubt to be cleared...I was confused in operating the three wae tap...played wif it fer a while n get a hang over it...i also did practised suctioning...n bernard assess me a while on hw to suction patient...steel okae larr...just hv to gv more explanation n be organised...

N guess wad i got the letter frm my sponsors's hospital...they give me priority to choose my ward...im confused wad to choose btw medical ward,surgical ward, AnE,OT,ICU or rehab...but wad i noe AnE,OT and rehab is out fer me...because AnE is too hectic,OT n rehab won't hv anie much skills to learn...so medical ward n surgical ward is my onli choice but hv no idea wad discipline..

Im diagnosed with mild asthma n hv been give prednisolone,piriton,dhasyl,clarithromycin and a ventolin inhaler...i didn't hv a relapse since pri 4...guess life is unpredictable... its been 5 daez but im steel not recovered...the process is very slow larr...

Planned an outing with ayang,fira n her guy to go play pool in august which is anotha 1 week awae...i hope its confirm...just wana let loose before the 'STRESS' period of 'EXAM'...

Here i m in the comp lab at lvl 5 blogging after sch...cause me n sheil actualie walk to YCK to find a bus dat go to cityhall fer starbucks but it onli start at 6.15pm..train was out fer us because i didn't wana stand in the train...then decided to walk to AMK but it rain halfwae so we made our wae back to sch...dats our story...

So now here we r in NYP having our own mini starbucks instead of going to the cityhall...haha..

Wedges and Caramel Frappe

2008-07-11T21:28:00.003+08:00

Exam is getting near...left with 5 weeks to study all the module...so kanchong sei..practical n theory fer clinical starts next week...had bernard class in the morning.he decided to test each n every one of us the skills of manual kit resuscitaor n airway management..memii went first..cud see dat she was very nervous..she knew the steps well but onlie the xplanation part got mixed up...so funnie...bernard kept prompting her n make fun of her...and as usual its alwaez me n sheil wud be either the last or 2nd last person..so sad larr...but the gud thing is i was paired up wif sheil...thing turned out well cux we both were the 2nd last...

Thot dat sch ended at 1pm so i brought management bk...but actualie sch finish at 12pm...heyr n sheil was caught by surprise wif mdm wong presence..their lanyard was seized fer 2 hours..lucky i didn't wear slipper larr...no need to worie cux munii was also caught ystd by mdm wong...i don't see the point y she need to do this...hehe...

Went to mit fira to take back my BP set n met munii to give her sponsorship form...chatted fer 30mins..was so funnie..enjoyed it alot eventhou it was fer a short tym...then munii told me abt diz new guy dat wanted to get to noe her more deeper..wahh so exciting sei...conferm sparks can fly anie moment..i wish u all the best larling...

Went to novena to sent his favourite food...i hope u r full by now ayang..ayang i like to pinch ur chubby cheeks..so soft n fleshy...wish i can bite ur cheeks...hehe...yes ah sundae going out to mit ayang to celebrate my belated birthdae...n to RIKEE i hope u do ur best at the band performance..sorie i can't make it..will make it up to u one dae...have to mittup soon...miss ur 'WHOA' alot..hehe...

Feeling sick alreadie...having flu n dix irritating sorethroat..wana hv a gud rest after dix so can recover in tyme fer prac test n theory test next wk...im half broke now..waiting fer ayang's pay..to supply fer this 2 weeks expenses...

ps: i can't wait to feel the wae u use to win my heart from the very start...

2008-07-09T20:38:00.006+08:00

I love my birthday celebration soo much...thankiu guys fer dat wonderful dae spent wit the both of u..appreciate it loads..

Mom n sis called me at 12am sharp on sunday just to wish me hapie birthday..they even sang the song..was very touched..i was wif ayang becux ayang wanted to ton with me so dat he can wish me personally..indeed i was elated...eventhou u didnt bought aniething im just thankful dat u rmbr my birthday...cux at the end of the dae its the tots dat counts...hehe...

My birthday presents frm angels:

Khair's present

Sheila's present

2nd sis present

Father gave me $50 fer my birthdae...so shiok larr..can go shop shop shop fer more clothes..wee!! I realie enjoy it alot...and for those who wish me:

-ayang,mom,dad n sis,munii,fira,khair,sheila,may,fiona,rabiah,ella,norin,nisa and denise.

A Very Big Thank You!!!

2008-07-02T20:37:00.002+08:00

Yahoo...finalie Community Health and FYP is over...left with the displaying of products on week 15...Ystd when we presented the community health pjt, we got good compliment frm khadijah abt our product...was shocked fer a moment becuz her views n comment differ alot frm Tang..u shud see her face..she was smiling n eager to see wads is in our battle kit bag...her face showed the excitement dat realie relieve us...at least there is still sumone who like our product...Congrats subgrp 2...wee...

Left with only 2 more ica...which is socio and med surg...after all diz will be exam week..n then 2 weeks of holidae before starting AnE n OT attchment...goal to lose weight is achieved...yipee!! Still hv alot more to lose...but step by step lorr...n my skin colour returning back to normal...dun hv to be afraid of getting dark....hahaa...

Skipped todae community health lecture becux wadeva she tot us, we hv learnt wen were in sec 4...abt nutrition. Then went to get a green waterbottle becux i wana start drinking plenty of plain water...due to the advertisement talking abt not eating healthily, u can get diabetes n then lead to amputation of the leg...so scary larr..i dun wan to suffer in my old age...so hv to start early...tried to hv vege in my meal during lunchtime just nw..ate sambal goreng with long beans,seaweed chicken n sweet n sour fish with rice...life is very short n we can go anietime...at least prevention is better than cure...

4 more daez to me being a year wiser...wohoo...can't wait..hee..

2008-06-28T22:42:00.002+08:00

Went to novena to have lunch with ayang at Fork n Spoon...tot it was a chinese kopitiam..didn't realise dat there was a 'halal' certificate pasted on the wall..haha...ayang ate fried kway teow while i ate ban mian..but i steel prefer the banquet version lar..after dat i sent him off to the bustop and went to take train to bugis alone..hehe...had to grab sumthing fer sister bdae on mondae..bought fer her a shirt..hope she will like it...

Ayang is not feeling well...take plenty of rest n sleep early kae...the main thing is to eat ur medicine..dun be stubborn tau syg if u wana be well again...

I hope u r feeling okae now...n u hv think thru manie tyme before u arrive to dat decision...wadeva it is,i will alwaez be there fer u...

ps: i am in lurve with u...just keep loving me the wae u do...

2008-06-26T23:36:00.003+08:00

Ystd fer the 1st tyme,i saw her with my own pair of eyes...i have long wanted to see how she looks like...n i saw it fer myself..I had high expectation of her cux i tot she would like pretty.Never did i expect her to be just a girl next door...she didn't seem like a person who like to smile...it did change my perspective of her being a friendly girl...so all dix while i was trying to keep up with her appearance but i did more than what expected...

Had a big fight with ayang cux i began to take things lightly nowadays...im sorie i didn't take ur feeling into consideration..n laugh about the matter..i noe it involves alot abt ur reputation..slept onli at 4.30am ystd cux we wanted to settle things between each otha..it takes alot of effort to ensure the smooth sailing of relationship..give and take is the KEY. Thanx ayang fer making me a betta person. My temper now in under control...

Todae FYP presentation sux with Tang as our lecturer...she didn't realie like our idea of battle kit becux she expected more than pictures and words. It took us alot of effort to finish the product on tyme. I just dun like the wae she thinks becux its wae different from wad the module coordinator expect of us...n dat cramp face of hers just makes me irritated n it did distract me during the presentation...nevertheless we hv to take her feedback into consideration..n she was good enough to actualie take into account dat we r d the 1st grp to present so she will be a lil leniet..

Went home n straight away bump onto the bed..was so tired n sleepy to the max larr...slept frm 6.15pm to 9.45pm..was supposed to wake ayang up at 8.45pm but i overslept n set the larm at the wrong time*hee*. N now im trying to drink hot chocolate to make me sleepy again...no plans fer FRIDAY...no life sei..was tinking of hving dinner with my 2 bestie but im afraid dat parasite won't agree..FUCK larr he hv no rite to control her life larr...u onli her bf not husband..i just hope she can..if not then will slack at home or just to lepak with khair n sheil...see 1st provided theres no miting lerr...

ps: u r sweeter than wad i hv ever emagine n im convinced dat im the onli one dat u lurve...n i will lurve u fer as long as we r together..

2008-06-24T21:05:00.002+08:00

Finalie FYP powerpoint presentation is almost finishing with a bit of touchup to be done...went to see Ms Tan weather we r on the rite track...n she said we r on the rite track..thank god..lucky she wasn't fussy as wad i thought but she alwaez neva fail to show her cramp face..haha..

Went cwp to accompany heyr to wait fer rikee...then we sat at the usual place n heyr started doing pjt werk with his labby while i played with his comp...saw a sec sch couple standing near the bridge n looking out..so fortunate lar them...so young got boify..i onli had boify after i graduated frm sch..dats part n parcel of life...just miss my youth life alot...

Then went to buy waffle n went separate way...i took the train n saw sharon my junior whom i was closed to...she look more prettier now..talk abt how we used to be in sec sch with ravpreet,muni,fira n herself..gossiping n laughing loudly abt teachers n BOYs,doing stupid stuffs when seniors dared us...n guess wad i saw the two irritating teachers of my sch...luckily they didn't approach us..or else mati larr...hah...

Need to do my composition fer boify n also objective fer FYP...hope everything goes well..weee!!!
To my dearest girlfy..dun b discouraged with the sch stresful schedule..im sure u will b able to pull thru...rmbr all those ard u.they can be ur motivation...its fer ur own future...if u need me to push u,i can study with u even if u r not the same course, then u won't slacked further..i will be more willing to help my fren...

2008-06-22T00:48:00.002+08:00

Ayang todae i feel so comfy just being by ur side...u realie change alot fer me..u finalie hv the courage to manje2 with me..i feel like as thou its a dream. Sometime i do wonder y feelings can fluctuate..at 1 pt u will be so in lurve with that person n anotha pt u just feel normal eventhou there is still love fer each otha...i like all the sweet words dat u tell me todae,i like the wae u belai my hair n face...i like the wae u hug me n stare in my eyes n the wae u hold my hand..becux u onli do it once in a blue moon..todae u gave me dat new sensation..i believe couples can do anieting to spice up their r0mance life..ayang i believe in u and us...i love ur company...i feel fortunate dat i get to spend my life with u..

2008-06-17T21:23:00.013+08:00

Yesterday at Siloso Beach:

Sunday's is Mother's Birthday:

Happy Birthday Mother...I love you..you are the bestest Mom

Saturday outing to JB at citysquare MarryBrown:

Sister's gathering

Im loving the holidays!!!Wohoo...lalala..wiss wiss wiss...

2008-06-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

YES AHHH........me n heyr had completed 9km of Southern Ridges...wohooo...
We mit 2pm at harbourfront station n went to venture to find wers the mount faber park...
Heyr kol rikee to reconfirm weather r we walking the rite wae...seems dat we walk one big round..but dats a gud thing cux we dot to experience the feeling of going hiking...1st we hv to go thru so many flight of steps before reaching Marang's trail...dats a lot of hardwerk...serious..no joke sei...

Luckily the sun was not dat scorching hott...after going thru Marang's trail...we go fer the forest walk n then the alexandra arch,Kent ridge Park n finalie the Canopy walk...When we reached the alexandra arch,i was amazed..it was so high up n u can even see the forest under the bridge thru the tiny holes...my gosh i was freaked out but just continue to walk cux we had gone a long wae...n there was a durian tree dat we spotted before reaching 500km to the end of alexandra arch..so cool or wad...at the alexandar arch,heyr kept taking pictures n we decided to hv a break to drin water n ate sum snacks..while eating we saw a grp of ncc boys n girls walking while cheering fer themselves...they were staring at us n their cheer was so odd sei...very the funnie...heyr wanted to video but at d end,he realised dat he did'nt press the record button..hahaa...

We continue to walk till a point of tyme we were lost...we didn't noe wer's the wae to kent ridge cux there were 2 wae junction..then we just walk thru the construction site near the kent ridge area..went thru the canopy park n spotted a squirrel..so cute larr the wae it climb the trees...then frm far we cud hear the ncc ppl shouting n cheering...we were ahead of them eventhou at dat point of tyme we were resting...after the canopy walk it was the end but we need to find the exit which is the science park at NUS...then we spotted a signboard dat say "pond" so we were curious as tp how the pond luk like,we decided to explore it...given dat it readie 6pm,we need to walk faster before it turn dark...

At last we saw civilisation...NUS ppl jogging around th pond...we noe dat we r nearing to the finishing point...then we saw a busstop..thank god...took the bus to buona vista n heyr accompanied me all the wae to cwp to eat minced chicken noodle...after dat we went separate waes n head home...

Im sunburnt but dat does not matter cux i realie did enjoy the 4 hrs walk...damn shiok arh..
The next tyme we shud go walk in the night cux the scenery is much nicer with different color lighting...im gonna go ther again in the night tyme lar...
Pictures r with heyr so if i managed to get it then i will upload it on the blog...
In a wae i did exercise todae..yeay!!!
1st step to losing weight...going to m'sia tmr wit family...to buy dvd n also to do treatment lar...can't wait...
1st wk gonna b over...2nd wk will b pjt stuff oh gosh hv to b prepared.

Ayang dun tink too much...im not blaming u...dun get the wrong idea..nobodie is perfect in diz world n each n everone of us r unique in their own wae...so i respect the wae u behave wen u r with me cux wad i noe is i love u fer who u r n just because i love u doesn't meant dat i hv to change u...just noe i will alwaez b dere fer u thru thick n thin..trust me..
I LOVE U DEEPLY

2008-06-12T23:26:00.002+08:00

Rikee n Heyr....i love the night walk yesterdae with both u guys n the breezy wind...sorie dat i went out late ystd...usualie by 12midnite i wud hv gotten out but ystd was tough especialie the security alarm system part n since its the holidaes my family turned in quite late..i was feeling abit scared at dat moment..lucky my 2nd sis pakat with me n cover up..thanz sis ur the best!!!Eventhou i don't express it,i do appreciate every ting dat u do fer me :)

So went out at 1.50am...managed to catch at least 30mins of slip..then heyr called to check on me..ur suspicion was rite i was sliping but i did set the alarm..managed to escape bringing items such as contact lens casing,mirror,lighter n cardigan fer myself...rikee dress so innocent lar like sec sch kids..very cute especialie with his specs on..

Like wad heyr has blogged in his blog,we toured woodlands area n this tyme without a map so we had to based on each otha sense of direction...it was so much fun especialie wen u hv to be sure dat ur sense of direction is correct...3 pitstop: playground at 430, bustop at 317 n RP n lastly under rikee's blk...we were totalie tired n since there's 2 bench..we both reserved each bench..open our shoes n lie on the bench..it was so comfy dat we slept fer at least 40 mins..damn syiok mann...

After dat its tyme to head home...i took bus 912 while heyr took a cab since his hse is far frm here...reached at 7.30am n i just bumped on the bed...slept until 10.30am becux ayang kol me...tok to him fer awhile n then went back to slip..every hour he kept disturbing me..no peace lar..grrr!!! woke up finalie at 2.45pm n got readie to mit ayang despite my tired body...kate syg mahh...

N now im blogging fer awhile before i sent an email to geeta regarding FYP...n then off to bed fer hiking tmr..get readie sun block lotion..i turned dark due to swimming last tue with ella in the morning n with ayang in the evening...still got a lot of fats to burn..must chiong arh...n im shocked dat we onli got 1wk break after the 5wks attachment before PRCP...mampos..so fax=st sae..need to prepare liao...

We onli hv 3-4mths left before we go fer separate attachment..i swear im gonna miss all the night life n crazy stuff we did...just do noe dat i appreciate ur presence in my life...thanx fer being a great gilar fren...n rikee hope dat ur backache goes off soon n go seek medical treatment kae...lurves!!!

2008-06-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

U did prove a lot to me yesterday...
Now im convinced dat u hv no more feelings fer her...
I feel dat im of great importance to u...n in a wae i feel very special..
Wadeva u expressed to me ystd,i hv neva seen dat side of u..
It did surprised me n u took a lot of courage just to express it...
I appreciate the sacrifice u made ystd..just to be with me 2 hours in the middle of the night...
Ur words keep ringing in my ear..i just wish dat tyme can be stagnant so dat i can be in ur arms the whole night...
The memories was beautiful n ystd did make me realise dat my feelings fer u r much stronger after all the hassle of quarreling..
Indeed wad they sae is true fights help to strengthen bond between a couple given dat both parties dun give up...
Ayang i love u..wadeva confession i made ystd to u r realie frm the bottom of my heart..
I promise u dat i won't sae dat word again...
I miss u...

2008-06-09T18:27:00.007+08:00

Bestie n me

Met bestie at 12pm todae n catchup with alot of stuffs....we tok abt each otha boify n abt the past when we were single...we alwaez stick with one anotha..spent evry single daez either on the fone or at each otha's hse..but now its no longer the same,i miss those time...nevertheless we still trie to mitup despite our bz schedule..gal i appreciate ur efforts alot...being with u just make my life hapie...with ur laughter and stupid jokes..hehe...i wish tyme can just stay the wae it is..but sadly it can't...anw i hope we can b frens forever as long as we can...lurves!!!

Me with koyok on my neck

Decided to go jogging but sprain my neck dunoe becux of too much hanging on the fone...haha...very painful lar..i hope by tmr everything wud b okae cux i promised ella dat im going swimming with her at jurong...a healthy lifestyle fer me this whole week...no choice mahh my babat is showing lar beneath my clothes...must be determined..Did tried doing pushup ystd but fail despite 3 tries...Morning,Afternoon and Evening..i landed on the floor n can't get up again...so heeded heyr advice...it takes 2 wks then can pass to do 1 push up...haha..i will do my very best to tone my bye bye fats...yeay!!!

2008-06-09T01:28:00.016+08:00

Birthday celebration at ayang's hse fer baby 6th birthday bash ystd

Baby Adrian....this is how my son will look like when he's born.Cute rite?

Me and Umairah

Me with Christina

Mak oteh n Cik aziz Family

Me with ayang's family...too bad he need to work so didn't take photo with him

Muke steam keperrr!!!

Happy 6th birthday baby princess...

2008-06-06T10:33:00.002+08:00

Shucks!!! How can i eva forget my handphone...
Was late n have to rush cux got bernard lecture...
Later skipping community health at 12pm..
N going home to take my hp n go out with mother n sis...
SHOPPING...
Miting boify tmr so wana go buy new top...
Yeay...holidae start readie..
Hv to train fer dis wkdaez n miting fira n the giler gurls...
Can't wait..
2nd wk will be pjt work but 1st wk chiong lar go ENJOY!!!!

2008-06-03T21:57:00.002+08:00

Ystd NAPFA test left me with a abdominal and thigh cramp....failed it after 2 wks of not training n running..but haha at least i did tried my best..anw alraedie noe the outcome even before i start...at least poly dun force us to retake over n over till u pass like in the sec sch daez...but heyr too bad lar u need it fer NS..but its not bad after all since dat fren of urs is willing to train tgt with u..i wana follow larr sey...hehe...

During break,me n heyr started on our socio ica on job satisfaction...managed to crack our brains to tink of examples to relate to the theories...n there's a new module wer we hv to do 2 more ica fer 3106...more work...haish..no break sei...holidae hv to rush thru to do pjt...FYP presentation in wk 11...3 more weeks..OMG..slides steel not readie...hmmm...

Yeah tmr going out with heyr n sheil b4 she berangkat to umrah...dunoe wad to wear becux tmr there's photo taking candid shot..must wear nice2 larr..haha..kae wana go search wardrobe now..wee!!!

2008-06-02T12:46:00.002+08:00

Slept at 3am ystd cux couln't stop coughing n woke up twice in the mid of the night to vomit...i hate dis kinda feeling.Onli managed to get 3 hours of sleep n in the afternoon theres NAPFA test..im prepared to fail cux i dun think i can do the inclined pull up...lucky im a gerl lar,if im a guy it has an impact on NS life..2months will be shorten if thebguys managed to get either silver or gold if im not wrong..

Brought wrong book to 8am lecture todae,so ask fiona for blank paper to copy notes .Irene teaching is very effective becux she explain everything in detail n make u understand the topic betta...both irene n clemaus lecture was short n sweet so ended early n went to eat at north canteen.While on the wae bump into fira n her frens..so gud she finish her class at 11am fer the dae..Hapie yr 1 life mah...heyr mia fer todae morn lecture.Will be seeing him in the lab session ltr..

2 more hours to go...im feeling very sleepy after having a heavy lunch...was thinking of waes how to save money.I just can't resist my temptation of spending my money on unnecessary things.Have yet plan to go out with my sec sch frens...miss u all alot lar...2wks break cuming so must plan..FYP is due on wk 11.Shucks during the holidae theres so much things to cramp n im scared fer med surg module cux there 5 bks to study.Like wad i told fiona in the morning,no more last min study or else diff to pass...exam will start in wk18-19 like dat..stress sei..n thinking abt countdown to PRCP makes me more nervous eventhou im excited but theres sure bound to be stress n scolding frm seniors but no choice..just hv to face it..

I want to GO SHOPPING...everything in my wardrobe are all worn out...n i need shoes n slippers...just waiting fer holidae so dat i can shop shop shop...
2 more daes to 13mth anniversary..wee!!!
I will forever love u till i close my eyes.

2008-05-30T21:00:00.002+08:00

Don't push me against my wish...
I tak nak means i tak nak kae..
A lie dat shud have been told earlier...
Y shud u hide it frm me..
Im disappointed but rest assured i won't bear grudges against u..
Its my fault dat i take it too hard..
Im sorie..

2008-05-29T13:47:00.005+08:00

Here i m blogging in the computer lab at lvl 5 during the 2 hour break...have no meeting so decided to slack and blog..sheil n rab are having meeting until 3pm...no choice have to be a loner...haha..anw heyr i miss u lar..3 daez u're not in sch so boring sei...naseb sheil ade to company me..anw skip 8am lecture becux was too tired n sick..5% deducted sei.Dats a lot lar...but nehmind at least got xtra hours to slip...have yet to buy books fer anotha module which is 3106.All tgt got 6 bks worth of $20...perhaps i just buy it tmr...Came sch at 11pm eventhou there was miting at 10am.Can't seem to wakeup due to drowsiness of the cough syrup n piriton.

Went to take out money at yck mrt atm but its not working so decided to q up outside cheers..after waiting fer ard 15mins,it was my turn but transaction could not be made.Was so frustrated cux i don't hv a single cents fer todae.May was so nice to lent me $5.Rest assure i will return u the money tmr...steel hv anotha 2 hrs lect to go..so sianz..ayang picking me up at yck after sch...miss u dear.

Ayang rest assured i will change myself to be a betta person n not throw my tantrum over trivial matter..n im no longer sensitive like last time...its been a week since we last fought.So i cud sae theres a bit of improvement..like wad they sae in a r/s we have to give n take..its true dat i lurve u ayang but sumtym i don't sae it verbally.Instead i show u dat i lurve u more than aniething else,action speaks louder than words..Wadeva i did on tue fer u is ikhlas dari hati...The gud thing is im slowly trusting u.I don't hv the suspicion of u calling anotha gerl when i don't hv midnight calls frm u...i hope every lil things dat i done fer u can eventually make u forget her...its 3years alreadie..i dun wan it to drag anie further ayang...i noe u love me but its not wholeheartedly cux there is steel space in ur heart dat u steel hv a bit of feelings...but i give u more tyme..u might sae dat im selfish but its fer my own gud ayang...

I hope dat dae will come so dat this thoughts won't haunt me forever...

2008-05-12T23:08:00.002+08:00

Todae i was super nervous fer my prac exam dat is due at 2pm...i just hope dat i can get hand rub fer my skills cux i heard dat its ez to pass...the time came...At 2pm,i was the 1st one to go following the class register..my right eye was twitching...which meant gud thing will happen...
We were all supposed to choose a card...me,sheil,poh n pan shuang get OT skills...i was super duper hapie...weee!!!

It was assessment time...i got dix old lady dunoe wads her name...i almost forgotten to sae out the envt part...n during rubbing the floor was very WET...she said dat i almost flooded the place...due to she being short,she stand on the stool next to the brush holder making it difficult fer me to take the brush...

Nevertheless i steel pass...im so hapie...yeay!!! Got the same lecturer as heyr wer can neva pass wan...hehe..then after dat send sheil to bus interchange cux i hv to wait frm 3-5pm fer boify to finish werk...after dat i bumped into poh so i walked with her all the wae frm sch to bus interchange...just trying to occupy time...

Then mit boify at 5pm n went to his hse...take a nap fer 1 hr more or less...then played with his youngest sis card game...boify continue to slip...he wokeup n we ate dinner tgt...after dat went home...

Hv yet to prepare my speech fer tmr presentation...will do it after dis or slip 1st fer 4-5hrs den i wakeup so dat the mind is fresh...sorethroat still not cured yet...hate it..i alwaz got sorethroat n as a result my voice become jittery as if im nervous...hahaa...kae lar gonna hv sum rest...
Thanx norin n heyr fer the gud luck msg...

Heyr dun think too much abt ur r/s...if both of u love each otha,insyallah evrything will go smoothly...the secret is GIVE n TAKE and TRUST...

2008-05-11T13:54:00.003+08:00

Todae is MOTHER"S DAE...hapie mothers dae to my dearest mummy who have take 18 years to take care of me and brought me up to be a good daughter...im so glad to have u as my mother...i appreciate all ur kindness,care n concern,freedom and the understanding u gave me...despite me being stubborn at times,u steel gave in to me and pretended nothing happen...i realie appreciate the trust u had in me...thanks mummy...i dunoe how to pay ur gratitude but trust me wadeva happens i will alwaez be there fer u...

MOTHER YOU ARE THE BEST...todae i surprised her by going out early in the morning to buy fer her a gift which is a 7pcs tumbler set...went to cwp with my youngest sis to buy fer her a gift...my 3rd sis bought her a brooch an lip gloss,2nd sis bake muffins just fer her...the 4th sis boght fresh flowers fer her...how sweet can a daughter eve b to her mother...n its very rare to see me huggung n kissing her...i do appreciate ur presence mother but sumtyme its hard fer me to express eventhou i care a lot fer u...

Clinical prac exam is tmr at 2-3pm...n im the 1st one to b assess...nervousss!!! Cuz the rest had been assessed n heard a lot of scary stories abt lecturers being grumpy n vent it out on students..oh my..how m i gonna go thru dis period..n their criteria sumtymes are not in the book...pray hard dat i get rubbing fer clinical prac...ya lar heyr beban is over...so shiok arh no need to worie..n ya u neva gave me ur lanyard fer tmr 8am lesson..hope u dun b late...xiao jun i steel can't tag on ur tagboard...it sae sumtihing abt spam prevention..damn..i will trie to tag u asap on anotha tagboard ya...i miss u loads gal...

Im having a cold now...keep sneezing non stop..pop panadol cold but hv no effect..WTH...gona hv a nap fer a while...n fer those ppl hving ur clinical prac tmr, all the best..jiayou!!!!

2008-05-08T21:31:00.002+08:00

Came home late ystd at 11pm cux a friend of mine is in need....u r alwaez there weneva i need u so its time i repay back ur gratitude...was shocked wen u called me n sudd started tearing...i noe sumthing is not rite...quickly rush down to braddel to pick her up after theory test n went down to esplanade...wanted to withdraw money but atm machine at esplanade was faulty..the idiot thing is dats the onli atm machine lar... lucky steel got spare cash at dat tyme...onli $4.50 enuff to buy the shrooms meal...hahaa...

Told her updates abt my sch life,attachment life n pasttime of kutok org...at least it did make her cheer up fer a while...after dat wen to merlion to sit down n tok...told me dat she had a quarrel with her bf n d wae he treat her is so different after 1 year of being tgt...i noe if 4 yrs r/s can breakup wad more a 1 yr r/s...it all start frm a small misunderstanding n sum harsh words dat pierce thru her heart...i feel fer her cux i went thru dat situation b4...either 1 hv to give n take n make initiative...i rmbr MAY once sae...love the person fer who she/he is...dont eva change the person...but the guy wan her to change...

Sumtymes they can be insensitive to gerl's feeling...im not generalising...sum guys r ok...ex is alwaez the contributing factor in r/s quarrel..wad to do we gerls r sensitive n selfish...if can we wan our man all by ourself...but dats impossible...haha...

Luckily fren is taking it cool n easy...dun b too harsh on urself...in life certain times we hv to let go of things if he does not belong to us...u can enjoy ur singlehood without control...im sure u will find a betta guy..just noe i will b dere fer u alweaz...trust me...

Slept at 1am ystd...was so tired...n todae the whole dae i was weak n sleepy...didnt felt like dis b4...to the extent dat i slept fer a while at a seating place at lvl 3 beside bio lab...im all so drained...cant slip during aftn nap...
Hafiz sir msg me....so hapie dat he replied to my msg..its been so long since i last saw him...miss his phrase...got gold on the floor is it until must look down, my grandma take it awae readie...

Cnt wait fer ymr graduation briefing...on the actual dae can wash eyes larr..haha..noti2..got intention wan...will b miting ayang onli on sat..5 daez of not miting him make me miss him...distance makes the heart fonder??

2008-05-01T14:27:00.002+08:00

Ystd was quite an enjoyable dae with the screams n running all over the place to the extent of climbing on the bench just becux of a cockroach...didnt noe dat may n poh was also scared of the cockroach...n it all happens in the toilet..i was so scared to change my attire becux the cockroach was lying on the floor...n the thing is it is NOT DEAD...eww yucksss...sheil cover it with toilet roll cardboard n move it a bit..suddenly it turn n crawl out of it...it started crawling everywer...we started shouting till outside can hear us...kept running all over the place...till zhu yu's fren killed it..n everyone calmed down..

Onli me,may,sheil,poh,zhu yu n yuan yuan...khair op-out cux his love was sick(so swit of him rite)...onli 6 ppl run out of the 10ppl last wk...the spirit is starting to die down but its a NO fer me..i wana do my best...but i steel cnt do the incline pull up...PFFT..Onli poh,zhu yu n me finished the 6 rounds..the weather was super burning hott sei...sheil,yuan2 pancet at 3rd round while may at 5th round...i acheieved a timing of 16min...went up by 1 min...wohoo..steel room fer improvement...

Went to bath...it was HEAVEN man...so cooling..after dat went to buy fruit juice to quench my thirst..yum2 starfruit pear was so refreshing...sumthing like isotonic drink..may bought banana...haha..she sae it was so nice...hehe..wrong...

Waited fer nisa fer 1 hr...then went to khatib park to hv sum fresh air...then nisa went mit boify while i went to mit mine cux we steel hv issues to settle...a separation dat was unexpected...i didnt want to sae it becux i seriously lurve u...but u push me to the max of saying it...just anotha 4 more daez to 1yr...in fact i didnt even expect us to go dix far...but thinking it thru after all the thick n thin dat we hv gone thru tgt just make me diff to make dat decision...its a TEST u wan to see weather i can take it or not...feelings r no joke to me...

Wad happened btw the both of us was a NIGHTMARE...we broke each otha's heart but in the end we steel lurve each otha more as the daez goes by...everythin were back to normal ystd...steel hv no idea wad to buy fer our 1 year anniv....hmm...have to tink fast...

Going to boify hse later n then go to his makcik's hse fer kenduri arwah...i need to wear baju kurong which is so NOT ME...do i hv a choice???hehe...tmr hv miting after sch fer ICA...gonna b bz...hv to start studying fer theory test liao...nxt wed sei..cnt play2...haha...wee...

2008-04-28T11:44:00.002+08:00

Here's the start to week 3....theory test and clinical assessment test is just next week...heaven start revising yet...gonna hv to rush it thru this weekend...was shocked with xueling's new hairstyle...she looks pretty,cute n sweeter with her short haircut...

We gonna hv meeting fer the next 2 hrs in comp lab to touch up on my 1st ica...weee...n wads make me hapie is dat boify want to fetch me frm sch..i hope he means it...yeay!!!
Im glad dat the sat didnt end just like dat fer YOU...the fact that both of u managed to tok it out with each otha just make me so hapie...its learning experience fer both of u...

Yestd a fight btw ayang n me just prove alot...dat u truly n sincerely love me...its true dat u hv to be firm n fierce towards me before making me cool down by pujok-ing me...if u didn't even do all those sweet things n to chase me all the wae frm marsiling mrt, i wud even hv ended our relationship hastily without thinking at dat point of tym...
I just dunoe y i tink too much...im just scared dat the feelings dat we hv fer each otha will fade with the long period of tyme...Ystd did test both our bond n lurve fer eacth otha...
Ayang i realie lurve u dear..thanx fer the effort of trying to maintain dix relationship...u r the sweetest n the nicest boify dat i long for...

2008-04-24T19:27:00.003+08:00

School have started and its coming to the end of week 2...ICA is coming up in week 5,7,8 and 12 if im not wrong...im so stress...luckily 1st ICA is nearly done...wohooo...moving on to the next...im glad dat we are able to cooperate with each otha...we just hv to let mdm irene look thru it to see if there's sidetrack...

Heyr u betta tc of urself tau...da lar kaki cramp rabak giler...nk turon tangga mcm datok bongkok tiga gitu..haha..ckp psl dier diri sendiri pon same..its the aftermath of ystd jogging effort fer NAPFA 2.4km trial run..it was supose to b OTOT...manage to finish 17+ min..but considered fail...need to buck up and practise more...onli 10 wks to NAPFA..can't even do a single pull up fer inclined pull up station...hv to do 5 to get 1 pt..lau satu tk lei uat aper lg 5...confirm tgn cabot hanging on the bar sei..heh..

Sch is so bored...alwaez with the same routine...study then go home...but luckily frens are the 1 dat motivate me to go to sch...hee...heyr ask ur dad to urot ur leg again tau...so dat it wont worsen..n im impressed despite ur sprained ankle ble nk jadi suparman,u steel r determined to donate blood..dpt pahale tau...(:

Went home just now with mingli,lilys,leefung,ruining,fiona n sheil,xueling n may...mcm da class reunion like dat..hee..n stop by bubble tea shop just to buy blueberry red tea...instead she gave me blueberry green tea..yuckss...it taste so odd n weird..but no choice becux earlier on a customer was mad with her cux she gave the wrong bubble tea to her fer 3 tymes...so just as not to make life difficult fer her, i just take it...cant b bothered cux im too tired...

IM MISSING NIGHT LIFE ALOT......i wana ton and do crazy stuff...its been quite a while since i last hv a thrill...Bored with routine life...miss boify a lot cux 4 daez haven mit....nehmind absence makes the heart fonder...

Sorie ayang if im too tired to call u in the middle of the night n make u feel neglected...im very bz lately with project..i will try to find time to make u sure dat i msg u to show u dat i steel love n care fer u...

N sheil hope u enjoy ur sweetest tyme now with ur special fren...n nisa fer god sake its WAJIK...fasting mth pon ader..not nly hari raya..u don't think too much kae...take it easy...life is alwaes full of ups n down..(:

2008-03-13T17:52:00.002+08:00

Exam results are finally OUT...n im so hapie dat i improved despite the last min revision fer 2037,2119,2117 n 2082...

i got A fer bio
B+ fer 2119,
B fer 2117
B fer 2037
C+ fer research methods
C fer 2057

A GPA of 2.944

Im soo hapie..didnt expect to get gud results.Nevertheless im very satisfied with my results..told ayang the gud news n he was very hapie fer me...lurves..gonna celebrate it by buying myself a pair of jeans as a reward...n miting ayang tmr fer dinner n plan to chill with him because i don't get to spent tyme with him fer the past four daez...
Ayang i miss u alot...can't wait to mit,hug n kiss u tmr...love u dear..muackzzzzz...

2008-03-12T20:24:00.002+08:00

Must love be based on education??
I mean its true dat without a cert,its difficult to find a job...
But will a good job secured a happy marriage in the future???
I neva eva once look down on u before...
U suddenly pop out the qn abt the future...abt wad job u were going to hold after u finish ur 2yrs of NS...I can just give u suggestion to continue studying or to take up new courses to upgrade urself...

The motivation to continue studying lies in u...i can't help u if u don't help urself...in dis new generation cert is a MUST...i noe u can do it...don't be afraid of failure...because failure is the route to success...why must u b afraid??If the rest can do it,so can u..like wad i alwaez sae i will alwaez support u no matter wad happens...

but y must u asked me to find anotha person?? Y r u afraid dat u can't support n take care of me..we can discuss it over..money doesn't make me happy..its u who makes my life worth living..i don't care if u don't hold a superior job...all i eva asked is fer u to be with me forever...we can work things out about the education thing...no one else can make me happy otha than YOU.

2008-03-11T13:12:00.002+08:00

Had a talk abt our future with him...abt our jobs,who will take care of the household chores and how is our wedding dinner gonna be like n how manie children r we gonna hv...
But sumhow it does makes me afraid of wadeva may happen in the future..its true we dun noe how long we will last...who noes the dae after we will break just like dat...nobody noes..
I hv tried telling u dat but no he doesn't wana think abt it....

U even asked me weather i will leave u if aniething bounds to happen...
my answer wud b no if wadeva happens is fnancial prob,family prob,werking probs...
BUT.....i will leave u if u dare hv anotha affair behind me cux i can't afford to share love..i dun wan history to repeat itself ayang...
i won't cry fer u aniemor at dat point of tym if it were to happens cux i hv made up my mind to move on n reach fer my dream to succed in life...

Don't eva ask me to stay in ur life again...
U told me dat i brought u happiness,make u change ur bad habit,lent u a listening ear,willing to go thru with u thru thick n thin,help u in ur financial probs...
anie otha gerls can do dat...the one special thing in me is dat I LOVE YOU THE WAE U R...n i dun need u to change aniething abt urself.

U urself told me to be with u foreva but i dun one u to find me n treasure me just becux u r in hardship...im sorie..u just hv to learn to suffer n realise ur mistakes. No doubt i still love u but i will hv to move on ayang...dat is my promise to u if it were bound to happen one dae.

2008-03-09T23:45:00.004+08:00

Had been sick from thurs all the wae till sat...was hving fever with productive cough n flu..decided to self medicate becux ive been to the doc 2 times last mth...luckily ayang was there to b by my side on thurs evening wen i was so weak n kept lying in bed...it did show dat he cared fer me...a blessful feeling indeed..

Stayed at home fer 3 daez...n finalie on todae i went out to have lunch with ayang..steel not well yet but slowly recovering..went to hv nasi padang at his place n tot after dat i just go home..but he suddenly wan to follow me home so i waited fer him...then on the wae to the bus stop we had a tok..he started to sae abt his past..of course i will feel upset cux im scared of losing u ayang...we fought fer a while but after dat things went back to normal...

When we reached my hse,ayang kept holding my labbie n start surfing internet...hmm fer abt 4 hrs he was surfing the internet,i just watched wadeva he was doing..then we went to eat ramli burger fer dinner..yum2...

Tmr he will be on afternoon shift all the wae till thurs...onli get to mit him on friday..which is four daes awae..gonna miss him...but tmr also miting him fer a while to pass food fer his dinner in case the canteen at his place is close..so must b prepared first..hehe...

Just gonna rest at home the whole of todae n make sure dat i get wll soon...anotha 2 wks to imh posting..yahoo.........

2008-03-03T00:37:00.002+08:00

Yeay...posting finish and the start to 3weeks holidae...im so lurving it..steel heaven plan wad to do dix holidae..hv yet to go shopping fer new clothes n jeans..to make time to mittup with my dearest bestie...clean up my messy room due to exam fvr last mth...hehe..

Well last wk gynae posting was wad i wud sae interesting...bcux it realie is an eyeopener fer me...did saw thru the procedure of bridge abortion wer the leg came out first insted of the head..at dat moment i suddenly feel so crushed as in y humans can b cruel at tymes fer their own selfish reasons...i hope 1 dae they will realise their mistake..

On sat went to vivo to mit rab n her sis...was super late fer at least 3omins sei..hehe..n d bad thing was my sandal strap broke at the wroong tyme..at dat point i was at noven..luckily i brought rubberband..it did help in emergency lar...yay!! Then i saw rab in the train frm outram towards harbourfront..tot they went 1st...nope they waited fer me at outram..so swit...went vivo to support antibiotic..was so kecoh sei n d best grp dat i was amazed is fantastic 2..so fierce,powerful n energetic..did enjoy the performance..

After dat hang out with eis,anna n wan...joking n laugh abt the past..hehe..abt all those kedi yrs n moments we had while trying to steal bicycle...those old daez was cute...

Sundae was boring so i went to do my eyebrow n bought new contacts..man dere was a rise of $5 extra sei...so expensive sei..frm $18 jump to $23...no choice lor 7% gst mah..after dat went to ella hse to chill...had a big fight with ayang over a msg...guess i was too paranoid..but ive tried to just calm down n accept wadeva dat may come...luckily everything settled btw the both of us...

Love is like a maze if u dun quite agree n understand with each otha...

2008-02-14T21:05:00.003+08:00

Saw munii before the start of paper at the sports hall, she was with her frens...n she is hving socio exam..fer onli an hour, so gud sei..cux i rmbr the book we hv to study was so thin unlike dis mental health...guess wad the sports hall steel stinks like hell man..since 1st yr 1st sem..oh god..lucky we came 7 min before ppr..tot heyr was late but i was surprised to c him in front of me...he came earlier than us..we went ahead first without me..butt how??? took a shortcut ke??

Like finalie mental health ppr has finished...n the mcq was super tricky...all the words r not directly lifted frm the lecture notes sei..irritating..my vocab not dat gud sumtym it kept me wondering wads the meaning of the word,n the essay was okay but the thing was my mind suddenly went blank fer the 1st qn on legal issues of restraint.i just trie to rmbr back wadeva i hv read before.Luckily i rmbr bits and pieces here n there....oh wells..now its over..haha..next up BIO...

Im so jealous dat everwer i turned my head i see FLOWERS..so cool or wad..haish no date fer me todae sianz..but ya nehmind ayang so long as u lurve me dats enuff fer me...

Was on my wae h0me...tot of sleeping once i reached home..suddenly i saw ida..was so hapie to see her..its been so long since we last met n tok...then we both hug each otha n i join her study group fer dinner..we tok abt our sec sch moments..miss dat alots...one thing fer sure, ida said dat i used to be a quiet gerl..hahaa..dat was so like kuku years ago man...can't recall the name of the handsem hunk who is in our sch..the person me,denise,xj n ida adore most...kip guessing by saying shh...,fa...,n lastly i got it..salleh...he is wad i say hottstuff eventhou he's short, get to noe one of my classmate did a porn video,didn't expect it man but like WTH cux the video was obviously making her look like a fool instead of the guys enjoying it seriously man...

liyana ate 2 fries altgt eventhou she was not dat hungry...tok n ate fer abt 2 hrs then i decide to head home..ayang kol me while otw home..he hv a sorethroat n fever..take gud care of urself kae..hv plenty of rest n eat ur medicine..

Sheil enjoy ur valentine with the singles...n nisa go c a doctor if u r steel hving GE in ur stomach instead of butterflies n all d best fer ur date...enjoy ya =)

A confession revealed...

2008-02-13T16:30:00.007+08:00

Wednesday (13 feb 2008)

Its been so long since i last blog...well here i am at nisa's place CC..blogging tgt with her..yay!!!
Been bz studying dix whole wk n it sux cux im bored to death by studying..
So mon went out wit ella to lepak at kfc n tok all abt us...so fun while we tink abt our future n d past..

Ystd went out wit ayang to hv lunch b4 he went to werk...just 1 dae n i miss him so badly...lurve can realie make u crazy,high n sad at tymes..
but im so loving dis feeling..its as if i first stead with him...can't believe dat this feeling is coming back...like im on cloud nine...
AYANG I LOVE U ALOT...
sadly can't celebrate valentine dae with him cux he's werking but can't wait to have my post-valentine with him..
Decided to skip family gathering just to meet him..

Muniiiiiiiii im so hapie fer u...u did have a great pre-valentine present...hope dat u will alwaez b hapie with him..i give u my blessing...yipee!!!

N to my frens...everything happens fer a reason..just let tyme tells..dun let one fall bring u down..rise up again n show to evryone dat u're strong...i believe in u...love is neva easy so it will take a lot of effort to build a r/s...but steel if u hv given ur best..dun b disheartened...d thing is dat u hv fallen in love with dat person before is gud enuff...learn frm ur past n live in the present...

Nisa i wud alwaez stand by u...trust me gerl...n plz hor go n eat..u r making me skip my lunch fer dinner sak...bt nehmind at least i get to noe dat u r okae n to be by ur side is gud enufff..hehe

Anw all d best fer ur exammmsss...wee!!!

2008-01-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

Tuesday (29 Jan 2008)

Finally its the end of presentation for dix semester...phew!!! Time to focus on exam..heaven even start revising lar..DAMN...will be super bz revising during CNY holidae..i mean i dun hv a choice do i???

Ystd was ayang 1st dae of werk at spom...he get to operate the ktv and gym at the old PA...relaxing job sei..hope its gonna be exciting fer him..n 1st dae steel can use the fone dere to kol me..hehe..daring btl sei u..

Cuzzie been asking me out since last wk but was too bz with sch pjt n boify...nehmind i make it up to u nxt wk ya..inform me early2 kae..hv yet to mit up wit eis n ella...guess exam matters cum 1st...

shopping list:
-shoes
-jeans
-bag
-tshirt or sleeveless top

Dunooe weather my shopping list can be accomplished...hv yet to pay fer my hp bills...shucks..time tp save up fer my sch fees dats due in may...means that i hv to cut down on shopping..no way man...i still wan my share..
Dis tyme i wana trie start back my reading habits...its been so long since i last studiously read a book sei.

A misunderstanding cleared.....

2008-01-26T12:17:00.000+08:00

Saturday (26 Jan 2008)

I felt the great impact of hurt after realising dat im slowly losing sumone who i realie treasure...
Y do All Good Things have to Come to an End???
Will i ever get to save it???

2007-12-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

Sunday (23 Dec 2007)

Life is full of risk...if we neva try, how wud we noe dat we can succeed..
Like i told u life is neva easy....everything is difficult..but as long as u r hardwerking n dat u give ur very best,everything will go smoothly just like wad u want...
Have confidence ppl...n rmbr dat onlie u can help urself..
I can onlie b dere to give u motivation n support...
Hope u rmbr my piece of advice..
Wadeva happen, i will neva let u face it alone...i will b dere to share both joy n sorrows..
Dat is my part as a human in dis werld..
To give love,care n concern to all my loved ones...
I wish u all d best n dun eva give up..jiayou!!!

2007-12-22T00:28:00.000+08:00

Saturday (22 Dec 2007)

Wokeup at 11am cux ayang msg me...he was so excited cux he get to book out again...yea2 get to see him again..its just been a few hrs since i last met him but i miss him soo much...
Skip breakfast since i was not hungry...decided to follow mum to do groceries shopping..its been so long since i did dat..bought nasi ayam black pepper fer lunch...it was so nice..yum2..

After lunch i felt bored so i decide to paint my nails...it realie relieve my boredom...Dis is the 1st tym i paint my nail..n it did cum out nice..wee..was satisfied..after dat i felt sleepy so i took my afternoon nap...dis holidae i kept sleeping alot man..but im sure liking my holidaes..lurves..wokeup at 5pm to get readie to mit ayang..went fer dinner tgt...after dat slacked at his hse...played wrestling with him...my gosh he is damn harsh man..hehe..
After dat ayang was so tired...his fever is cuming back...told him to eat med but he was stubborn...i hope he get well soon wif plenty of rest..

Mr Heyr is going on a holidae todae..so wished u a hapie vacation n promise me dat u will cum back safely..4 daes of FUN n ENJOYMENT fer u...wee!!! I wan my souvenier...heh..just kidding...while on my wae back i saw a big tent fer wedding reception..the decoration realie caught my eyes..wit the chandelier shining..my gosh it realie looks like my dream wedding...awww...wen's my turn??...

Yea can't wait to mit my 2 darlings nxt thurs..hope dat they can make it...lurves..wer r we going aniwae??Heaven decide yet..hehe..nehmind..we r d last min gerls mah..hehe..

2007-12-20T15:24:00.000+08:00

Thursday (20 Dec 2007)

Ystd wokeup super early at 6.30am just to go jogging with ella,lala,ain n wan...hehe.Met ella under my blk n then off we walk to the stadium..its just 10 mins walk..diz is the 1st tyme i went out with ella n we can communicate well...den met up with lala..it was unusual of lala to wakeup early..but good job..heh..then we decided to jog 1st just to wait fer nenek ain n tok wan arrival..promise that they will cum at 8 but they arrived at 8.30am...

Seriously this is the 1st tyme i jog after 2 yrs of not stepping into the stadium..n d worst thing is nxt yr is my NAPFA...dun noe how to gain back my stamina..guess i need help of ella d sprinter...we did hv a lot of fun smacking each others butt n toking abt our life while running..lala was so funny with all her lame jokes...make me tired of laughing...n gosh her boyfy is super handsem n fashionable...made me melts..hehe..

Then all of a sudden ella brokedown...i was so scared..me,lala n ain tried to console her...we just let her express her sadness...then she decided to jog alone..i just felt worried so i followed her just to let her noe dat she is not alone...ella dun ever blame urself dat u r stupid..take it as a challenge dat god hv given u..he is realie not worth ur tears..if he realie lurve u,he won't treat u like dis...d decision dat u made to be wit him is not a mistake at all...cux u dun expect him to change all of a sudden..rmbr we learn frm mistake...

Show him dat without him,u can steel survive n be strong...Gurl power...yes i agree 1 of diz daes we shud go to ECP to let out each otha steam...then we went to ljs to eat..i was super clumsy dat my fork n tub of cheese fall on the floor...lala was saying dat i can steel eat the cheese provided i didn't touch the surface..kate nurse lala mah..

Then i sent ella home to her doorstep n gave her warmth hug to make her feel betta n dat we as her frens steel care fer her..then ain came to my hse to download music into her mp3...after they went home...i decided to take a small nap..ard 6pm went to mit ayang...

Then we went to eat BK n then i wanted to gv him the prezzie..but i didnt wan him to open in front of me scared pai se....so i tot of giving it to him wen i wanted to go home...but ayang was curious n he didn't like surprise..i steel didn't want to gv him..then ayang sulk..i cheer him up n gave him d prezzie finalie...then accompany him n his family to buy hp..after dat went to AA to eat supper...i was steel full so i just ate fries...

On the wae home, ayang msg me n said thnx fer d prezzie...im glad he did appreciatte it...lurve u dear...dun get to mit him todae cux he going his relative hse beside his dad...so just hv to wait till tmr then...missing u loads as d dae pass by ayang....

2007-12-18T21:00:00.000+08:00

Tuesday (18 Dec 2007)

Wokeup late ard 12pm todae cux slept late d nite before ard 2.30am...did hv a heart to heart tok with eis...long time neva heard news frm him..but im hapie dat u didn't take it too hard abt wadeva dat is happening in ur life..i understand d state u r in...hope dat ur grandpa rest in peace...at least u did look on the bright side of life...we laugh,becum crazy n speak in mats-minahs term..its been so long dat i ever tok like dat..i think abt 6 mths..the gud thing is we didn't even lose contact...wee!!! Lurve dat tok alot...shall mitup soon..miss all of u..

Then todae went out with my 4th sis to yishun to trim my eyebrow cux its damn thick readie...after a month of not going there, wen i went there n thread..OMG the pain was unbearable plus i heaven eat my breakfast n lunch..imagine the stomach growling with the pain of ppl plucking several eyebrow hair at 1 go..hehe..then went to LJS to eat lunch...suddenly my hp rang..tot dat my sis called cux she is taking her N lvl result..look on caller ID it was heyr..hehe..n awk doesn't mean i go yishun alwaes mit my ayang wad..thinking abt wad u said now i noe my world revolve ard the kang-kang are..CCK not cholecyctokinin n YCK..hehe..

Toking abt Bio, i got A fer it..was so hapie cux i realie didn't hv the confidence dat i cud get A..expected B+ but yeah d hard werk did paid off...n luckily i did pass my research method ica eventhou didn't attend his boring longwinded lecture...n NORIN thanx fer going thru all the trouble just to look fer my admission no n my grade..appreciate it alots gal...

After waking up late, i steel felt sleepy..quickly went home cux was tired..n was so hapie dat sis can make it to sec 5..CONGRATS MY DEAR SIS....i hearts u..ur stressful studying did paid off..wee!!! Then watch rusell lee "old grandmothers tale"..but it was not scary at at all...then watch OTAI halfwae n slept fer ard 1 n half hrs...wokeup at 7.30pm..msg ayang gud luck wishes fer his PDT theory..i hope u pass d test ayang...hv confidence n dun b nervous...jiayou ayang..3 cheers fer ayng hip hip hooray...

Yea2 ayang booking out tmr..can't wait to mit u ayang..miss u loads..bought fer him sumthing..tot it was cute becux of the wording on the object...it realie carry a deep meaning in me..i hope u like it ayang..n ain ask me out tmr morning to go to the gym with her at khatib..its been soo loooooooooooong since we last met...miss2..hehe...

Im lurving the holidaes............wohooo!!!

2007-12-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

Monday (17 Dec 2007)

ITS THE START OF HOLIDAY.............weee!!! Im so lurving it after a lot of things dat happen last week..wer i hv to juggle btw studies n relationship..n im glad everything is back to normal..thanx ayang fer not hving grudges against me..im sorie dat i made u mad n followed my emotion too much..perhaps i need to chill myself down with ice...i felt guilty fer not believing dat u were sick n vomitted wen u wanted to find me...i tot u neva even care abt me n im nothing compared to ur ex..but it prove me wrong.......Ayang i realie lurve u...just dunoe how to thank u enuff..hehe

Norin thanx fer all ur help...d wae u treated me is soo like da jie to me..u realie hv dat strong sense of responsibilty..i felt loved n blessed..thanx gerl..just dunoe how to thank u enuff..im glad dat i hv u as a fren..n 1 thing u luk cute wit ur specs..m honoured to b the 1st one to c u wit specs among the grp 14s...2nd is heyr lar..hehe..n realie u shouldnt hv washed the clothes fer me...did tok wit her mum just to ask "aunte chi fan ler mah?"..dats d least dat i can do to make her hv d impression dat i did accept her presence..hehe..NORIN Hugs frm me to u..lurve2..

Went to cik seri hse on sat wit ayang to celebrate chacha's bdae...hehe...forget to buy her present..ayang's mom gave me 2 chicken plus 3 chicken strip frm kfc..i must admit it was a chicken dae fer me..hehe...ayang was sick so i put a pillow under his head n belai him...force him to eat ned cuz he kept vomitting..but the weird thing he get betta after he start playing pakau with pak ngah,cik aziz,ayu n cik zaba..hehe..i didnt dare to join...dey play big bets sei...soo scary mann...so i decided to play with the kids till 1am...was sleepy cux onli managed to catch 2 hrs of sleep after an advenurous nite...lets just put dat in my memories..heh...ayang fer d 1st tyme accompany me to take d taxi n paid fer it...lurve2...

Sundae did come to his hse to accompany his sis n him cuz his mom went m'sia to top up motor oil...was fun cuz we lie on d bed..the four of us pile on top of each otha..mcm pyramid..then we act as if we were jamming..i took d drums while ain take d guitar...baby with the tamborine n ayang as the lead singer..it was so much fun..iron ayang's clothes n then bought food fer them...wen his mom get home, he get readie to go back to camp...then i sent him all d wae to camp..

todae was exciting...went to watch alvin n d chipmunk wit mum,shanaz n my 3rd sis..was so fun n cute..lurve theodore character d most especialie his butt...n his green eyes was so charming...hehe..n wen he sae dat he got nightmare n wanted to slip with dave...aww dat part realie touched me alot...hehe...chipmunks u rock big tyme..mini moni mini mo mamasita..

Ain all d best fer ur N lvl exam tmr...hope u pass wit flying colour n get to gain admission into ur fav sch n course..n to fira enjoy ur werk ya...hehe...eis dun b sad by wadeva happen..if relationship tkd gadoh tu bedek larr...sumtym we will neva agree wut each otha but dat is the thing dat help us to strenghthen d bond n noe each otha more in depth..d main thing is patience is virtue...rmbr dat...

Argh m y guy bestie leaving in 5 daes tyme..gonna miss ur companion n d tyme we use to chat on msn,tok on d fone all sorts of nonsence,ur lameness n gilerness...rmbr to enjoy ureslf..hugs n lurve2...awak promiz me dat u will cum back safely kae...ILYBT....muackss...

N to sheil cum back spore safely...i miss ur warmth hug dear...where's my souvenier??Just kidding gal...

2007-12-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

Sunday ( 9 Dec 2007)

Im realie in a dilemma...
M i wrong to be angry??
I hv the rite to be jealous n angry...
Is dat called attitude?
Its true dat action speaks louder than werds..
but there r certain werds dat can just pierced thru my heart without u knowing..
Im sorie dear..i noe i shudnt hv brought up d past..
I just can't help it...
Im sorie if u hv to tolerate all my nonsense..
I just feel exhausted...
Its true dat im inexperienced...
maeb keeping silence is the best wae..
Like d saying silence is golden..

2007-12-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

Thursday (6 Dec 2007)

Im hapie with the wae my life is now...
I just dun wan aniething to change..
dun eva ask me to make a tough decision..
cux im not readie fer it..

2007-12-05T22:22:00.000+08:00

Wednesday (5 dec 2007)

Mental health ica went on well and smooth..mr Bernard said dat its not bad, and deres steel room fer improvement..wad we noe is dat we hv done ours best..hehe.Was nervous at 1st..n accompanied by dat i got fever and sorethroat...but wad im glad dat its over..now we had to focus on abnormal psycho ica..left onli 1 wk..no choice but to rush..memii's grp wae of presenting was refreshing..it realie set the standards quite high..now we r all pressurized..

Went sumwer befor going home..just to buy sumthing fer household..it was raining heavily the whole dae..n since i neva brought umbrella, i hv to walk in the rain wit my white skinnies..it aws wet and dirty..hv sent to the laundry readie..

Bump myself on t0o bed..so comfy..at dat moment of tyme, i was feeling very warm inside of me..was suffering frm high fever..thx khair fer ur concern..no worries, ive heeded ur advice by eating my med before i wana go to slip..hope tmr im not sick cux just hate to see the doctor..hehe.Waste monie onli..self healing is betta..felt much betta now...sheil thx fer taking my card to tap fer tmr bernard's lesson..n tmr can't afford to miss param mock test..got tips fer ica..steel hv yet to revise on brain..kae i think i betta go n hv a rest..hope i got well tmr..yea!!

2007-12-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

Tuesday ( 4 Dec 2007)

Haish im losing my voice...my throat just hurt..On top of dat i hv a presentation to present tmr...very nervous...hmm.Just hope dat i cud make it...wee...
Not been sleeping well fer d past two daez...busy rushing thru the pjt fer abnormal psycho dat is due nxt wk..steel hv yet to study bio and research methods...
Alot of things to do and soo little time...kae lah want to go rehearse my script fer tmr presentation..wee!!!

2007-12-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

Monday (3 dec 2007)

Weekend rocks alot fer me...wee!!! Fetch ayang on sat n went to his hse..decided to postpone swimming on sun since he was super tired...we watch tv and tok abt each othas life..ooo miss dix tok with him d most..i dunoe y but i feel dat i lurve u more...then played with baby since ain went to mit chacha n risha at cik seri hse..

Later dat nite ayang went to werk cux his bro last min said dat he is very tired to go so my ayang took his place...he rushed to tuas by taking a cab..while i accompany her mom to send baby to silat...then we went to see kuda kepang at d community centre..it was so cool..n fun..like a new experience for me...d wae they use spirit to take control of the body and dance like a horse...instead of them eating glass,they ate flower to lure d man-horse to the owner...n wen the owner beat the horse wit a rope..it made a loud sound..i wonder its not painful to them..hmm

Then ayang finish werk at 11+pm...den he wanted to go home since there is no more container..i was worried fer him cux der was not a single vehicle seen at tuas.Luckily he managed to catch the last bus...stayed at cik seri hse till 11.45pm..are alot dat dae. I ate nasi lemak fer breakfast,rice with sambal udang fer dinner and rice with ayam msk lemak fer supper..was super full...then his father took him home since he had a motor to fetch ayang...

On sundae went jemputan kahwin under his blk..accompany his mom since she had no frens...then ate nasi briyani..its been long since i ate it..n d berkat they gave was so nice..it was a glass mug with decoration..then we quickly get readie to go to the pool...

Took a cab eventhou it was near...we went to yishun swimming pool...then wen we went in saw cik junah daughter fina..she was so pretty..did tok with her n introduce ourself..hehe..den i go n change n went into the pool...ayang kept disturbing me by holding my leg wen i satrt to swim..then we play catching n he had to be the shark..hehe..the chacha n risha join us..they were so mischievious..kept touching my assets..yay!!Then accompny baby to play d slide..very embarrasing wen the lifeguard came up to me n said its onlie fer 10 yrs n below..so paise..

Then join d rest at middle pool..played water gun..n tried to swim frog style but it didn't werk..we swim frm 3pm till 6.30pm cux he had to go back to camp..then i went back to his hse to pack all his things..n sent him to CCK mrt station..d dae went by very fast..but it gona b over...left 1 more month n my ayang POP..weee!!! Hope i get to see him marched but im scared it clashed with my attatchment..haish..just see how it goes..

2007-11-30T23:29:00.000+08:00

Friday (30 nov 2007)

Todae was super dufer double triple fun..hehe..wakeup at 10am n find myself late fer lecture.Was supposed to wakeup at 9am to cum fer 11.10am lecture..tried to rush to get readie.Managed to board the 10.45am train and realise dat i hv to realie rush to tap d card within 10mins grace...Then khair even worst, wokeup at 10.30am..overslept rabak sei..hehe.Den i decided to go fetch khair at simei n go tgt to jurong swimming complex..

On the wae ther in the mrt...i saw a man with a weird expression..he kept hanging his head up n opening his eyes very big as if he was angry..n he kept doing dat fer almost every min..maeb he terkenan or wad i dunoe noe..oni sheil n khair noe d expression..sorie to make u all laugh till sheil cry n khair drool..yay!!!

Reach simei but was lost...i dun noe d direction to his hse eventhou dix was the 3rd tyme..hehe..managed to find at last after going 1 round ard simei mrt..hehe..den we went bk to mrt to go all d wae to chinese garden to mit fiona,xl,mingli,sheil,nisa n norin..wash eyes at cute n slenge mat n a pretty gerl who luk like eurasian..den alighted at chinese garden n tot dat they wud be dere..but we reached 1st..went to cheers to buy chicken pie but it happen all of a sudden sae..khair i noe u noe kae..so zip itt..

den went into d lazy pool..weeeee!!!! balancing on the float wit khair..so fun..den we decided to go the pool with waves n artificail rain..it was very cold..xueling hold hands wit me..while d rest was behind us..khair was in front of us enjoying himself..diz moment of tyme, he went missing..sheil went to find him..fer a second we tot he was lost..he was realie in his own werld..

We went play d slide..theres blue,pink n yellow..i realie like yellow the most..cuz its very fast n u can feel urself lying lateral...n wen we slide out..fer a moment it did go into my nose..but i admit its d best..we played till 3.45pm..then took pic tgt before washup..xueling had to rush to werk so didnt eat with us...miss her lameness..hehe..

Forget dat norin my latest darling is werking with me in ttsh as mingli my 1st wife..hehe..feel so blessed but dunoe how to cope with two..heheh...den after dat fiona went home cux her hse was near..den we took mrt..me,khair,sheil n nisa drop off at cityhall while norin went to tamp..sorie khair n sheila fer dragging u along to town with ur slacky outfit..

went to topshop to grab my tops..n den we spotted a barney concert at marina square..so hapie..especialie d part wer we hv to sing 'I LOVE U, U LOVE ME'..like small kid but deres a saying dat how old u may seem, theres alwaes a child in every1...went to starbucks to get rasberry frappucino n bought white skinnies at peni..dat guy who attend to me was so cute..wen he sae thanx..did make me melt..hehe..but he underage lar..yikes!!

After dat was super tired worn out..so decided to go home..n i did enjoy my dae alot diz week..todae was d 2nd tyme went swimming..the 1st was with khair,sheil n norin at tamp...Im lurving my life alot...
Ayang sorie if ive been neglecting u..im trying to enjoy every bit of my life to the fullest..its not dat i dun care about u...im glad dat u did trie to understand my position..can't wait to mit u ayang..miss u alot dear..

Yea2 get to fetch him tmr..wee!!! Means hv to get up early so toodles i gonna slip nw..nites ppl..lurve khair,sheil,norin,nisa....hugs n kisses..
n wei jie u broke ur promise lar..hehe..

2007-11-27T13:21:00.000+08:00

Tuesday (27 Nov 2007)

My weekend was great..spent both sat and sun wit my ayang..thanx fer making me feel loved...i realie lurve u alot dear..despite all d hardship we faced..will miss u for anotha 6 daez..can't wait to hug u again..yay!!

Ya ba da ba doo..........i pass my clinical prac exam..im soo hapie..wee.Didnt expect to get peg feeding n bladder washout fer prac exam..n my lecturer is aishah..super scary..diz is all becuz khair gavage bag uat hal,since he wan to be representative fer majulah singapura..hehex..but thank god she was nice..onli her tone was firm n fierce..realie tot dat im gona fail at dat moment..but she passed me...wee..

Was mad ystd at dis gerl..she wanted to push d responsibility to my guy..how cud she..did i eva owe u aniething?? I dun even noe u..n pls dun play a fool wit me cux u will get hell frm me..n yupe hope dat wadeva i msg u ystd was a lesson to b learnt...wadeva it is i dun wan to hear anie bull shit frm u b***h...just stay away frm him..at least u shud consider gud enuf dat i let u msg my guy just to b fren with him..

If u wan it the hard wae..i will also gv u a hard tyme..

Todae we hv to wear ex sec sch PE tshirt...feel very akward cux scared dat ppl wud think i went into wrong sch..then we took pic..realie felt lyke d sec sch daez..weijie look like a real teacher to me..didnt noe dat he did relief teacher at sec sch...so cute..hehe

Den todae evening, sheil,maira n me went to amk to watch ENCHANTED...it was a nice muvi..realie enjoy d company with them..feel so loved n blessed to hv fren like them..
n khair hope ur headache dah okae..n ur head neva pusing...or else i can help turn fer u..kae sounds wrong..hehe..

Yea2 tmr swimming with norin,nisa n sheila..not sure d otha 2 guys will join or not..its gonna b super fun..wee!!! Can't wait fer tmr...

2007-11-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

Friday (23 Nov 2007)

Its alreadie d 6th week n steel i heaven start on abnormal psycho ICA...damn stress...a lot of thing to catch up..realie lost fer bio topic on brain. Very dry dat i alwaez hv little attention span on bio...hehe..learnt new things in mental health dat maeb im suffering frm mania..a hyperactive craziness...alwaez teasing ppl,not eating enuff n not hving my beauty slip..symptoms of it but the onli thing is dat i dun engage in harmful activities..yay!! Im saved frm dat disorder...

Overall dis week hv been quite okae fer me...a lots of ups n down..hustle n bustle..but ya luckily everything hv calm down..but i hv been thinking lately y i totalie change into anotha person dat i dun noe...its weird..i realise dat im no longer d person i used to be...why m i like dis??? I realie wan to change fer d betta..i dun wan ppl to hv d wrong perception of me..

Is it becux im tired of life or is it becuz im just living my life for othas??? Ive been trying to get an ans frm myself but i can't...i just wan to be dat old person dat i used to be...why must i change myself just to please othas???

Anw norin thx fer msging..i realie do appreciate ur opinion n kindness,BFF...n to the clique..i realie enjoy ur company..n im sorie if i eva did anieting that eva hurt ur feelings...i dun mean it at all...seriously...

to khair,sheil...thanx fer being my fren until now despite my gila-ness...BFF..
to wei jie,nisa,norin...im glad to be ur fren n hope dat we can continue our friendship as long as we live..

CHEERS FER D CLIQUE...

2007-11-16T17:04:00.000+08:00

Friday (16 Nov 2007)

Ooo....lurving dis week alot...especialie tue..yay!!! 3 guys came over n tok 2 me..sumore all are super handsem..n prince of the egypt is damn cute lar...
Steel hv yet to finish studying clinical...im broke fer d nxt week...sumbody plz help me..Just waiting fer pay dae to cum..hmmph..
n todae i didnt hv a DATE larr

2007-11-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

Sunday ( 11 Nov 2007)

Didnt xpect everything to turn out like diz...now i noe d truth n verdict..thx fer d isolation.N at least now i noe d reason, i can move on..
Its okae u wan to believe ur cuzen more than me but now i noe wer i stand. Kindness realie doesn't pay...if u wan to kol me a liar by all means be it..
Dis shows dat u neva realie noe me inside out fer all dis years...u rather can accept apology frm ur bf but my apologies r not accepted...
favouritism ke per? WTH...world is neva fair...
I meant everyone r not perfect n hv flaws...i noe im at wrong..a small mistake n it becum a big issue.
Up to u if u dun eva wana trust me...if dats d case u can just buzz off frm my life...n one more thing ur bf dun hv to cum into d pic..parasite..its none of his bisness at all...

Was worried y he kept hiding things awae frm me recently...i realie dun wan to invade into ur private life..but im just curious..i dun wan history to repeat it self..we did promise not to hide aniething frm each otha...but i cnt force him if dats his decision...
fought wit him fer a while abt his hp...he did pushed me wen i tried to grab his hp...was so damn mad wit him...but later we sat tgt n tok things thru..
maeb im just too over suspicious..dats all..hehe..did make plans wit the kids to bring them go ice skating after my pay...dun wan to disappoint them..dey wer very hapie..wee..
i lovechacharishaainbaby.............u did make my dae wit the butt dance...my cutiepies...sweet..i meant not d ibrahim sweet lar fer khair..hehe..
thanx munii fer listening me out..at least i noe der is steel sumone out dere who trust me n support me...

2007-11-09T00:26:00.001+08:00

Friday ( 9 Nov 2007)

Did hv a terrible dae ystd...started my pre-pms nonsense which i hated d most..cause me tinking unnecessary abt life..abt frens,ex-fren n boifren...make my mind twirl like a whirpool..luckily khair was not dere or else he will trie to stop my head frm turning lar..hehe.

Just dunoe wad can stop me frm tinking..bored at home..aimless dunoe wer to go..didnt follow mum to cuzen hse cux i didnt feel like it..then ayang decided to ask me out..turn down d offer...dun wan to ruin otha perfect dae..lastly wen he get to sense dat sumting is wrong with me..he forced me to cum since he wanted to hv a talk wit me..

Went down to his home...was shock to c ayang limping..cant bear to see him in dat condition.N he was hving a bit of fever..wanted to bring him to doc but he refused..he did advice me n made me feel much betta..thanx ayang..n khair also did advice n support me to..thanx a lot guys..
lurve u both alot...will neva forget both ur gratitude..
ayang hope u get well soon..take care..